Thinking Of Lovely Days

Tired

2010-12-06T23:09:00.000-08:00

So, the terms almost over FINALLY! Got rejected twice (almost a third) by guys, finally kissed someone new, but that didn't last too long. It sucks too because even though the guy wasn't my perfect, he was a good guy. Can I say I tried my hardest this term? In men, yes (lololol), in class, not really, but it was the first term of me living by myself, which is quite the step.

So guess what I ended up learning this year? I'm actually a messy person xD I mean, I can clean if I wanted to, but I have so much to do that I don't really have the time. Ok, that's a little lie, but LATELY I've been super busy. Especially today, jesus christ what a day. I haven't done much, other than work all day and go to Office Depot TWICE. Second time was totally worth it. I finally saw the cute worker that I've only seen once and that was in September. Got to tell him my name and hear the same thing he said last time xD It was fun. I'm still not done with what I have to do ): I'm just tired. I'm not gonna get much sleep tonight, I know this.

I'm also tired of hearing about my appearance. It's affected me so much that, even though I don't call anyone ugly or try not to, I don't always consider myself as pretty. I try to be, I try so hard. I've been dressing like a "hipster" just to look attractive and approachable. Even though it seems like I've got a ton of confidence by asking guys out, I really don't. When I come back home from flirting with a guy, I repeat the things I said to them and the way I said it in the mirror and think "Gross." I've been called ugly for most of my life and I know how much it hurts, hence why I don't use that word. It also hurts when friends tell me I'm pretty because I just feel pathetic that I have to be reminded that I'm not the worst looking thing on the planet. It's such a horrible and awkward discussion anyways because no matter how many times you tell your friend that they're gorgeous, they won't believe it. I mean I do have my days where I'm like "DAYUM, WHO DAT GURL" but from what society considers as beautiful, my physical features aren't really up there. My last guy was really nice though because I didn't feel ugly at all around him. He'd pause in between kisses just to look at me.

Wanna know something fun for me? I love reading my writing, even though my writing sucks. I have great ideas, I know it cause I think way too much. I don't feel smart though, not book/facts smart, which is fine for the most part. I like that I'm creative without trying so hard. And now the day is technically over. I have to finish my stuff, BAI

J vs. J

2010-11-21T17:38:00.000-08:00

[5:25:13 PM] Sam: Things in common with
[5:25:16 PM] Sam: Sir jefferson
[5:25:22 PM] Sam: So
[5:25:23 PM] Sam: one thing in common
[5:25:25 PM] Sam: face
[5:25:26 PM] Sam: fugly
[5:25:40 PM] Sam: ok
[5:25:42 PM] Sam: second thing in common
[5:25:48 PM] Sam: ...
[5:25:50 PM] Sam: both work
[5:25:51 PM] Sam: at
[5:25:52 PM] Sam: a
[5:25:55 PM] Sam: grocery?
[5:26:14 PM] Sam: jefferson works at crappy miminum wage job
[5:26:19 PM | Removed 5:26:43 PM] Sam: This message has been removed.
[5:26:25 PM | Removed 5:26:39 PM] Sam: This message has been removed.
[5:26:28 PM | Removed 5:26:38 PM] Sam: This message has been removed.
[5:26:33 PM] Sam: sorry
[5:26:49 PM] Sam: both kinda dorky
[5:26:51 PM] Sam: jefferson
[5:26:54 PM] Sam: possible rapist
[5:27:03 PM] Sam: jake looks like a mouse
[5:27:05 PM] Sam: (cute?)
[5:27:11 PM] Sam: cute
[5:27:19 PM] Sam: jefferson looks like a parrot
[5:27:23 PM] Sam: (potential slur?)
[5:27:32 PM] Sam: offensive
[5:27:42 PM] Sam: ok
[5:27:44 PM] Sam: so
[5:27:59 PM] Sam: both have penis
[5:28:06 PM] Sam: (whitney may want?)
[5:28:09 PM] Sam: both could be part of
[5:28:11 PM] Sam: a zoo
[5:28:16 PM] Sam: not as workers
[5:28:36 PM] Sam: things not in common
[5:28:37 PM] Sam: ok
[5:28:40 PM] Sam: so
[5:28:43 PM] Sam: umm
[5:28:44 PM] Sam: jake
[5:28:46 PM] Sam: oh WAIT
[5:28:48 PM] Sam: jk
[5:28:51 PM] Sam: thing in common
[5:28:54 PM] Sam: ok
[5:28:55 PM] Sam: both have
[5:28:59 PM] Sam: both of their names
[5:29:01 PM] Sam: start with a letter
[5:29:09 PM] Sam: jay
[5:29:16 PM] Sam: ok
[5:29:20 PM] Sam: things anti in common
[5:29:28 PM] Sam: Jake works
[5:29:30 PM] Sam: in a higher position
[5:29:36 PM] Sam: (maybe he liikes to be on top)
[5:29:39 PM] Sam: jefferson
[5:29:41 PM] Sam: is really
[5:29:43 PM] Sam: really
[5:29:46 PM] Sam: represents
[5:29:48 PM] Sam: a bad worker
[5:29:51 PM] Sam: unmotivated
[5:29:56 PM] Sam: (could extend to bed)
[5:29:59 PM] Sam: slacker
[5:30:04 PM] Sam: makes whitney do all the work
[5:30:07 PM] Sam: jake also
[5:30:15 PM] Sam: has a gorgeous sexy flowing man hair
[5:30:21 PM] Sam: uses conditioner
[5:30:26 PM] Sam: jake is also white
[5:30:28 PM] Sam: very racist
[5:30:33 PM] Sam: WHILE JEFFERSOn
[5:30:35 PM] Sam: IS UNCLEAN
[5:30:37 PM] Sam: FITHLY
[5:30:39 PM] Sam: NON WHITE
[5:30:47 PM] Sam: mom does not approve
[5:30:50 PM] Sam: yes
[5:30:57 PM] Sam: Jake
[5:31:01 PM] Sam: can hold
[5:31:03 PM] Sam: a conversation
[5:31:04 PM] Sam: without
[5:31:09 PM] Sam: looking like a
[5:31:10 PM] Sam: fool
[5:31:17 PM] Sam: WHILST JEFFERSON
[5:31:21 PM] Sam: MAKES ME FEEl
[5:31:22 PM] Sam: AWKWARD
[5:31:25 PM] Sam: also
[5:31:26 PM] Sam: classical guitar
[5:31:42 PM] Sam: jake is taller than jefferson
[5:31:48 PM] Sam: and you know what they say
[5:31:51 PM] Sam: about being bigger
[5:31:56 PM] Sam: uh huh
[5:32:01 PM] Sam: whitney likes
[5:32:02 PM] Sam: small dicks
[5:32:11 PM] Sam: jake is a cooler name
[5:32:13 PM | Removed 5:32:36 PM] Sam: This message has been removed.
[5:32:41 PM] Sam: anyways
[5:32:41 PM] Sam: umm
[5:32:51 PM] Sam: Jake doesn't work as close
[5:32:53 PM] Sam: to your place
[5:32:58 PM] Sam: as jefferson did
[5:33:04 PM] Sam: oh no
[5:33:10 PM] Sam: longer running distance
[5:33:28 PM] Sam: jake remembered your name
[5:33:37 PM] Sam: jefferson called you britney
[5:33:39 PM] Sam: jake is cutere
[5:33:41 PM] Sam: ere
[5:33:41 PM] Sam: r
[5:33:41 PM] Sam: e
[5:34:02 PM] Sam: jefferson was a creeper
[5:34:10 PM] Sam: also the girl after whitney
[5:34:12 PM] Sam: is huge
[5:34:15 PM] Sam: jake is smooth
[5:34:17 PM] Sam: like
[5:34:18 PM] Sam: sexy
[5:34:19 PM] Sam: and silk
[5:34:40 PM] Sam: jake isn't as attractive
[5:34:41 PM] Sam: as other men
[5:34:45 PM] Sam: (realistic?)
[5:34:55 PM] Sam: we are done

Just..something x]

2009-07-29T21:02:00.001-07:00

ofarevolution441: i ACTUALLY cried.

ofarevolution441: NOT exaggerating.

thenameswit: i cant believe you guys havent kissed!

thenameswit: dafuck man!

ofarevolution441: OR FUCKING HELD HANDS. THE FUCK.

thenameswit: ._. jesus

ofarevolution441: yeah. literally, if i even just met you in real life, we would probably be farther along in our relationship than sam and i are

ofarevolution441: as of this moment

ofarevolution441: UGH

ofarevolution441: (no, i'm not saying i want to go out with you. jesus.)

thenameswit: LMAO

thenameswit: HAHAHAHA XD

Ok, so this doesn't feel right.

2009-06-07T17:05:00.000-07:00

Hai, i'm back and guess what

I GOT A NEW IPOD+CELLPHONE

went to see night at the museum dos;

AMAZING, because reminded me of maryland.

i also got mentioned today xD

i was like LHEADJFH AHHH

pretty damn awesome.

idk how this week is gonna be like.

Uh So

2009-06-03T13:51:00.001-07:00

I don't knoe if I wanna continue doing this blog thing.

I've been slacking off and writing less.

I think I'll just do what the normal people do and blog when something amazin' happens.

Listen

2009-05-30T22:25:00.001-07:00

http://witified.tumblr.com

BABIES

2009-05-29T20:42:00.001-07:00

this is a girl.

♥

uhhh.

So TIRED X_X

2009-05-28T19:49:00.000-07:00

ok; so i finished my ET homework ^_^

i didn't do any homework tonight because i am so fucking tired.

tomorrow i'll have time though.

gap was alright today.

andrew and i went home together.

it was alright, not as fun as goin' home with natti, kari and veno.

:\ ah well.

ALMOST forgot.

2009-05-27T22:11:00.000-07:00

my child is NOT going to have hair like that.

o hai. its kyle and chago.

Jay<3

2009-05-26T20:44:00.000-07:00

thenameswit: like that guy

thenameswit: uhhh..

thenameswit: i think his names is

thenameswit: jaywinstheway

thenameswit: idk

ofarevolution441: oh yeah

ofarevolution441: i know that guy

thenameswit: yeh

thenameswit: hes kinda hot

ofarevolution441: jaylosestheshame

thenameswit: <_<>

thenameswit: o THATS it?!

thenameswit: my bad.

ofarevolution441: yeah yeah

ofarevolution441: there's one on mine

thenameswit: one what?

thenameswit: hot guy?

thenameswit: o_O

ofarevolution441: no

ofarevolution441: hot girl

thenameswit: oh ):

ofarevolution441: her names like rockinredtits

ofarevolution441: or something

thenameswit: LMFAO XD

ofarevolution441: nono

ofarevolution441: it's thenamestit

ofarevolution441: that's it

ofarevolution441: i'm thinking of her other accounts

ofarevolution441: y'know. i kind of stalk her

thenameswit: o rly?

ofarevolution441: yeah

ofarevolution441: i have a shrine

thenameswit: xD !!

ofarevolution441: *shrines

thenameswit: eh, i think she might be a hoe

ofarevolution441: oh don't get me wrong

ofarevolution441: she's a total slut

thenameswit: shes probably after that jayloseshisdignity

ofarevolution441: no no

ofarevolution441: his name is jayloseshisvirginity

ofarevolution441: get it right

thenameswit: ohhhhhhh xD

ofarevolution441: k i'm going to bed like the little boy that i am

ofarevolution441: night, tit

thenameswit: lmao xD HEYWAIT

thenameswit: NO

ofarevolution441: WHAT

thenameswit: DONT CALL ME THAT XD

ofarevolution441: (in the butt)

thenameswit: jat.

thenameswit: xD

thenameswit: bastard

ofarevolution441: haha

ofarevolution441: k bye!

ofarevolution441: wit

ofarevolution441: thar

ofarevolution441: we

ofarevolution441: go

thenameswit: <3

ofarevolution441: <33,000

Lols.

2009-05-25T18:00:00.000-07:00

Today has been a pretty fucking retarded day. xD

Woke up, finished my college essay.

Then realized I have to stamp it and blahblahblah.

Then went to brooklyn to shoot a video for my program, but it didn't even go off that well cause of assholes ^_^

I had fun for the most part, but realized Andrew is not for me.

He's just really cute xD

Tomorrow is going to be shit because it's a tuesday.

Turns out if i don't get excepted in any oregon colleges, my mom wants me to stay here forever.

Well apply for spring and work for 6 months.

Doesn't sound too bad to me.

Eh, now i'm just kinda thinkin about stuff.

Lets Just Say

2009-05-24T22:06:00.001-07:00

I've been thinking a lot.

Short.

2009-05-23T22:06:00.001-07:00

Lately a lot of the things I've been doing are short.

Blogs.

Videos.

Songs.

Chats.

Your mom. JK

tbh; i think it makes life easier for me and the viewer/reader/pedoWHAT?! --idk. i'm strange. X_X MAAAAAH NIGHT.

AEHGJFLGDRNFG

2009-05-22T21:41:00.000-07:00

Today is such a weird day.

Some guys are fucktarts; others are sluts; a lot of them are both.

RAWR!

MEMOIR

2009-05-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

IS DONE♥

Reasons Why I Love

2009-05-20T18:54:00.000-07:00

Chago.

Even though he's a slut, he's caring -- at times. xD

I find his weirdness adorable --for some odd reason.

I'm not afraid to do weird or silly things around him.

There's a lot more, but my head hurts like a bitch.

Fuuuuuck i wanted to go to school tomorrow but I knoe that I am not any better X_X Poor Kari..I told her I would go to our internship. :\ I'll give her something.

MAAAAAAAH DX

Swine You!

2009-05-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

i feel like a monster.

just cos i'm sick.

no one wants to go near me,

because they think i have the swine flu.

well FUCK YOU!

lost my voice again X_X damn cold

AH:D+AW )8

2009-05-18T16:47:00.000-07:00

AHHHH! :D o and districtlines contacted me i might be sellin some shirts :D bad news; i'm most likely not going to school tomorrow i feel HORRIBLE X_X which rly sucks cos i wanna see andrew ): but i dont want my snot sticking out when i talk to him

Triple Sneeze Day

2009-05-17T17:57:00.000-07:00

I found it funny how the three of us took a picture one after the other. I didn't even knoe until I clicked pictures. I think it's lovely though. I added a ton of new songs to my ipod BUT i don't knoe where my ipod cord is!! I'm dying here X_X and on top of that i'm sick. In the morning I lost my voice and now i have a running nose. :\ maaaaaah. Hopefully tomorrow will be ok--OH SHIT i have to email gaurav and krystian X_X fml. Well I hung my green day poster up today. Pretty nice. I'm getting my bose headphones fixed soon ^_^ weeeeeeeee. later gators

Why Didn't I Bring My Camera?

2009-05-16T20:58:00.001-07:00

Today was so fucking amazing. I had a sleepover last night, but we didn't do much since we had to wake up early the next day. I found out that Natty was weak though, HAH. We arrived late to our internship but for some reason the train ride (tehe) was so nice. I miss my bose headphones, they are like RAWRRAWR--i'm hopefully getting them fixed soon though. Andrew didn't go to the internship T_T It was still fun though. I got to direct, and party on railroad tracks. I really wish I had my camera though. Next time, I'm bringing my camera for sure. Going to Union Square was oober fun too, these guys were giving out green day posters, and singing to green day. One of the guys were hot and I was able to talk to him, but...turns out he was just waiting to get some weed...not cool X_X I ate soooo much today it was ridiculous. Two breakfasts, two lunches, three snacks, one huge dinner and another snack. yum yum yum. OH AND MAH GUITAR IS FIXED ^_^ this has seriously been a good day, and i haven't had one of those in a while.

Today I Felt--

2009-05-14T20:03:00.000-07:00

--blah. im so serious xD

Ya..

2009-05-13T20:11:00.000-07:00

so today i didnt do shit ^_^

lets just leave it at that.

IDEAS

2009-05-12T20:08:00.001-07:00

IDEAS ARE COMING OUT OF MY HEAD FINALLY! I've had

idea block for a couple days.

Things have been going great finally. Btw--reminder;

send this to jean!

I GOT IT XD sry, i wanted to reply with an idea instead of "sure lets do it" and have no idea what we're doing. So remember my oovoo rap? Well, I think we should make our own rap with the same beat. Plus that beat is singable x] eh, eh, maybe? :D tell me what you think ^_^ -wit

Ugh X_X

2009-05-11T10:20:00.000-07:00

I keep forgetting. I really can't catch up with my blog anymore. I don't get it. I have to remind myself. Maybe it's cause actual things have happened. Plus last night, I was typing up a story for about two hours and then went straight to bed. Chago, Zak, Adam and Alex read it. They really like it. The sad thing is that I can't write anymore because the paper is too long. It's 8 pages double spaced. It's about the swine flu turning people into zombiesss. Weeee. Yesterday we went upstate to Nyack and Bear State Mountain park, i love it. Took some wicked pictures of Coco in the area I wanna film in next.

I KEEP FORGETTING

2009-05-09T07:31:00.000-07:00

Well uh brb, cos like people from my internship are coming over X_X

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ok so a lot has happened today.

GAP came over and we had a bunch of fun.

Veno, Natty, Justin, Sofiya, Gaurav, Chrystian were there.

They liked my house ^_^

Then around 2:30, I realized I didn't want to be on the internet, so I went for a bike.

Then I convinced my parents to get out of the house and go somewhere.

We went to Johnny Rockets and Borders.

Man, I love their chicken X_X

I got a sketchbook from Borders ^_^

While riding back home, I finally realized, I really don't want to go to prom.

The thought of doing my hair, making myself pretty isn't going to be fun.

On top of that, only about three people who I care about are going.

Probably two out of three are going to be busy with their dates, or with other friends.

Plus, all my dates have bailed on me, showing a sign!

Just not worth it.

I'm not going and nothing is going to change my mind about that.

Well, I got some wise words today;

thenameswit: I AM NOT IN LOVE

tHR0Wbaq x0: if thats what you want to believe.

tHR0Wbaq x0: but when ever you can put looks aside to focus on personality; or get confused & ask bold questions--you're in love.

tHR0Wbaq x0: even if its puppy love; love is still love

tHR0Wbaq x0: maybe you're not in love

tHR0Wbaq x0: but you still are open

tHR0Wbaq x0: his words can break you or make you feel like best person in the world

tHR0Wbaq x0: and you love him for that.

thenameswit: ):

tHR0Wbaq x0: no its nothing to be sad about.

tHR0Wbaq x0: we all go through it.

tHR0Wbaq x0: just remember to never make anyway youre whole world. because sometimes that person has a way of ruining your utopia with them.

tHR0Wbaq x0: goodnight.

thenameswit: night :\

She's a great friend and I'm lucky to have her.

Flirting

2009-05-07T19:10:00.001-07:00

is very simple and fun.

Natty's gonna ask him if he likes me though.

Very nervous and I have a feeling he's going to say no.

Just like when he gave me the wrong number.

If something does happen between us, I probably won't be on the internet.

I only go on for one person.

No offense! xD

Usually I end up calling the other people.

idk though, we'll see

Buttons

2009-05-06T20:06:00.000-07:00

If only life was like this. Rainy days come and go, getting older or younger, but realizing that the love never changes.

A Load Off My Shoulder

2009-05-05T19:27:00.001-07:00

Let's just say--I feel 30% better than i did before.

Things Can Happen

2009-05-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

I had a horrible day today. I think a lot of people did. Tomorrow is May 5th. It's spose to be the best day of the yr, but it's also a tuesday. The worst day of the week. Maaaah. Some parts of the future sucks. Other parts I'm looking forward too. I wanna have one day where I perform in front of a bunch of people or even in a campfire. Maybe even in Maryland. Who knoes, things can happen.

thenameswit: dont you wanna see me again? X_X

shut up chago: OF COURSE FOO'

thenameswit: ^______________^

WHERES THE CHAPSTICK?

2009-05-03T21:48:00.000-07:00

thenameswit: ZECHUGACHNST WHERES THE CHAPSTICK?

thenameswit: xD

shut up chago: german?

thenameswit: LOL no x]

That is all that needs to be said tonight.

oh and TOWNSKILLER FTW

Crap XD

2009-05-02T10:42:00.001-07:00

i keep forgetting to write in this at night. Usually, when I don't write in this isn't cause i'm too tired or I simply forget. But hey, last night I said I wasn't going to be on the internet. I'm not, at least not aim, msn, oovoo, or skype. Today I did a lot. It's not even two yet x] I'm some what proud cause usually i just spend most of my time on the internet. OOH! I have to show you what this girl katey made, it's freakin' AMAZING!!

K, Can I go Now?

2009-04-30T21:00:00.000-07:00

fml, i going through a bad phase again, not as bad as before. but it's slowly coming back. for some STUPID reason my hotmail wont work X_X ugh, only on other computer not on this laptop. i am so tired. i went to the tribeca film festival thing and it was mega fun xD everyone is talking about colleges. im just like X_X cant i just move to portland and get over it? jesus.

I'm Hurt

2009-04-28T21:32:00.000-07:00

theres not much that i want to say other than;

i have no prom date, i never rly wanted to go.

im single, so stop bringing up chago.

Cos it hurts X_X

rawrrawr

2009-04-27T22:21:00.000-07:00

i is tired.

tomorrow=death of me.

happy birthday dad & chago.

tomorrow i must wake up early--somehow

DoubleSigh

2009-04-26T21:09:00.001-07:00

thenameswit: hey i did win your heart ^_^

thenameswit: at that moment..>_>

shut up chago: all my hart r belong to weiner

shut up chago: at that moment

thenameswit: ...): DAMN THE DISTANCE

*sigh* i did NOT finish most of my homework X_X and i had A LOT. fml

Dont Forget To Be Awesome

2009-04-25T20:55:00.000-07:00

thenameswit: michaelaranda

shut up chago: is god.

What I Realized

2009-04-24T21:52:00.000-07:00

I need a break from the internet. It just isn't fun anymore. Even though, I KNOW I won't take a break because I am so addicted. I just need too. This weekend is gonna be a long one--and in somewhat nice weather too. Hopefully I can at least still wear a sweater. Amanda got webcam finally ^_^ I was so happy. I feel a LITTLE better about the internet, but not too great. Usually I go on the internet to escape from things, but now I'm doin the opposite. Even today, I didn't want to go on blogtv a second time. Eh, chago wanted me to. Im oober tired--I am going to crash as soon as this is done

"My Daughter's a Blogger?"-Dad

2009-04-23T19:20:00.000-07:00

Alright, so for this past week and a half has been AMAZING irl, but on the internet i feel like X_X maaah. Why can't both of my lives be amazing? Today, I was kind of in a yay-meh mood, but then when i got to GAP, it was all WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I felt really good, I'm connecting more and more with the people every time we get together. I'm starting to like Andrew again, just cause we have the same ideas for a lot of things. I really like the fact that I'm working with him for the scripting. We kinda flirted today, we haven't really flirted since october, so I'm happy. We're talking more--even if it's mostly script talking, but i like it. Meh, he's just an internship crush--nothing more x] BTW--I'VE BEEN GETTING THIS ASKED A LOT LATELY X_X and i feel rly bad, cos i knoe chago hates it--so im hopefully gonna say this for the last time. CHAGO IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND. i mean--it would be nice, but he's not, so i'm single.

You've Been On My Mind

2009-04-22T21:25:00.000-07:00

And I have a feeling, you're staying there for a while.

HOMEWORK

2009-04-21T21:19:00.000-07:00

homeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomework

It's On

2009-04-20T21:21:00.001-07:00

ofarevolution441: don't care about what other people think gah

thenameswit: but...your thoughts make me smile ^_^

ofarevolution441: that sounds like a good lyric

thenameswit: ._.

thenameswit: it does.

thenameswit: >_> ITS MINEE

ofarevolution441: NO i called it first

ofarevolution441: it's MINEEEE

thenameswit: D:<<

thenameswit: BRING IT

ofarevolution441: *breaks out the boxing gloves from the 1934 match against pumping iron mcgee*

thenameswit: LMFAOXD OMG

ofarevolution441: it's been awhile...

thenameswit: ROFL xD o jesus, i love you

thenameswit: im still addin that to SOMETHING

thenameswit: <_<>

thenameswit: >_>

thenameswit: before you.

ofarevolution441: whoever tweets it first is the winer

thenameswit: i win

ofarevolution441: DAMNIT

ofarevolution441: i demand a rematch

thenameswit: fine.

ofarevolution441: rock paper scissors shoot

thenameswit: done

ofarevolution441: what'd you throw down?

thenameswit: o

thenameswit: lmao

thenameswit: uh

thenameswit: <_<>

thenameswit: monster

thenameswit: it eats everything

ofarevolution441: i threw down dynamite, which blows the living shit out of your monster

thenameswit: ...

thenameswit: CHEATER D:<

ofarevolution441: NO U

thenameswit: PSH

ofarevolution441: k, how can we settle this

ofarevolution441: videos?

thenameswit: deal.

ofarevolution441: k... but wait. what's the deal?

thenameswit: no wait

thenameswit: SONGS

thenameswit: who can make a song off of the line first

thenameswit: >_> WAIT

thenameswit: DAMNIT XD

ofarevolution441: no no

thenameswit: IM GONNA BE IN MY INTERNSHIP TOMORROW

ofarevolution441: whoever writes the better song

thenameswit: ._.

ofarevolution441: we both write it, post it on youtube

thenameswit: DEAAAAAAAAAAAAAL.

ofarevolution441: whichever gets more positive feedback wins

ofarevolution441: i'm pretty sure we're the only people that understand our tweets right now XD

thenameswit: lmfao xD

thenameswit: its true

Will He Let Go?

2009-04-19T20:12:00.000-07:00

i rly miss my friends in maryland.

i rly miss the memories we created.

i rly cant stop thinking about it X_X

i took so many video stills from clips that chago sent me.

*sigh* i'll have to wait till june;

for everything to happen again.

X_X O JESUS

2009-04-18T22:43:00.001-07:00

sister threw up today.

we were the only one in the house...

I FREAKED OUT

I DO NOT REACT GOOD TO VOMIT

she got better though

went out to ride my bike

i felt soooooooo good

also played with neighbors,

made my sister play with them too

that was lovely ^_^

made a video--its alright won

i LOVEEEEEEEEEE it.

it'll be posted soon.

note: i get jealous easily. so shh. ^_^ +i miss maryland/dc A LOT

k, tomorrow is gonna be RAWRRAWRRAWR for meh ^________^ fml!

Kinda Tired

2009-04-16T21:15:00.000-07:00

Lately I haven't been that tired, which is weird cos i barely get any sleep.

It's been like that since I got to Maryland.

I feel a bit different and I wanna change something about myself.

I don't knoe what yet, but it'll most likely either be my room or hair.

i am thinking WAAAAAAAAAY too much about that thing..in maryland X_X

stopitsotpitstopit

kbye

Wow, Made Out W/ Chago--Now What?

2009-04-15T23:56:00.000-07:00

Nothing actually.

Ok, so last night and today I had my fun.

We made out--but we agreed no long distance relationship.

I've already experienced long distance relationships; they are no fun X_X

I'll tell ya this much--im gonna miss the chago smell and his piano hands.

There's a high chance that I'll still like him, but not much will change.

Why did I make this whole thing public?

1)IT WAS MY FIRST KISS OK; IT WAS PERFECT.

2)wait..can the perfect be for reason number two?

3) a lot of people wanted us to already, so figured why not make the crowd happy--and myself at the same time x]

4) i rather tell everyone myself then have people spreading rumors that we did more than kiss <_<

I won't lie, this is all I was able to think about today.

I don't want to lose the memory, but hey--hopefully im going to maryland in june ;)

k--here's what happened.

2009-04-14T19:38:00.001-07:00

i win at life.

i made out w/chago.

+he was my first kiss.

and if he reads this--i told you i was gonna twitter it. ;)

I Wonder--

2009-04-14T08:20:00.000-07:00

what today is going to be like :\

someone wish me luck ♥

Hay guyz

2009-04-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

So hay, tiz i rockinbloowit lolol. So i'z hurr w/ chago hehehehee.

we be goin to DC 2dai lolol kk

so we had teh dinner last nite &&kfdsl he goan bite m3

kkbye

RAWR-- T_T stupid chago.

*sigh*

So Since I'm Having a Sleepover in a Couple Hours..

2009-04-11T09:49:00.000-07:00

I figured I would blog now. ADAM GOT MY GIFT IN THE MAIL :D WEEE!! that made me extremely happy. I went to check my email this morning and I was like "X_X where did i get 14 subs from?!" I searched my name on youtube to see if anyone mentioned me. But no one recently mentioned me. Then I check my subscription box and I check out Adam's video. When I saw he got my gift in the mail I was like WOOOOOO!!! Made me smile tons ^_^ I made a song last night called "It's Alright". I like it a lot personally. I've been working on my haromizing a lot recently. I has a sleepover in a few hours. im excited and nervous cos tomorrow i'm going to maryland X_X wow. just wow, i is nervous.

X_X

2009-04-10T19:52:00.001-07:00

tomorrow--sleepover

sunday--maryland/chago+nessa

monday--dc/chago+shayda

tuesday--movies/chago

*FREAKS OUT*

Wuh?

2009-04-09T20:37:00.001-07:00

For some odd reason...I'm in a dating mood. I kinda just want to go out with a guy to the movies and have my first kiss. I'm very tempted to ask..someone out X_X And kiss another guy. NO IM NOT A WHORE. i just like a lot of people atm. I doubt that I'll get a date this yr, meh. Internship was ok today. Didn't really do much since there was only, Kari, Veno, Lily and I. After that I went to see Monsters Vs. Aliens; that was actually a pretty good movie. some parts RLY made me laugh and the story line was good--dont rely on a man to be strong. booya

Two Words

2009-04-08T19:50:00.001-07:00

O Jesus.

I Am A Bottle

2009-04-07T18:42:00.000-07:00

Today during GAP, i heard a cmt "was it white people?" so many thoughts came across my mind. I have no idea why, but I felt like crying so I just stopped talking. Later on, I was taken aside to have a talk..and i CRIED ): I just started saying how I felt about everything and I came to realize, my life SUCKS and i just keep putting it in a bottle. :\ so thanks everyone who made me upset in any way X_X

BRB

2009-04-06T19:16:00.001-07:00

ofarevolution441: that must have been a party

thenameswit: o yas X+X

thenameswit: X_X*

ofarevolution441: i like X+X moar

thenameswit: xD silly

thenameswit: what would X+X stand for?

thenameswit: xD

ofarevolution441: 2X, duh

ofarevolution441: or x^2 if x = 1

thenameswit: LOL xD

thenameswit: jeez,i love you and your sillyness xD

ofarevolution441: i love you. end of sentence. 0_0

ofarevolution441: ?

ofarevolution441: what? who said that?

thenameswit: LOL

thenameswit: AW,

thenameswit: you rly do make me smile ^_^

thenameswit: not gonna lie

ofarevolution441: ^_^

Train Ride

2009-04-03T17:09:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION: Transfer complete: Train Ride.mp3.

ofarevolution441: kBACK

ofarevolution441: *listens*

ofarevolution441 returned at 7:10:47 PM.

thenameswit: YAYAYAY

ofarevolution441: i love

ofarevolution441: i always like the very subtle dissonance w/ the guitar

ofarevolution441: very unique

ofarevolution441: very beautiful

thenameswit: YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY XD

thenameswit: you dont knoe how happy i am

ofarevolution441: i like making you happy

ofarevolution441: especially when you deserve to be happy

thenameswit: AW ^____________^

ofarevolution441: :)^1000

yah, i made a song today :)

What The Fuck Am I Doing

2009-04-02T19:51:00.000-07:00

Alright, so the night before my stomach was hurting a lot and I wanted it to pass because the next day (today) I have internship. In the morning, I didn't feel too well, but I told myself it'd pass. It just kept getting worse. I went home, it didn't pass till around 5pm. I talked to Rhys though oovoo :) I didn't get to talk to chago like I did last night, maah. Now i is doin' homework kinda. I rly feel like shit now, my dad is spose to come to tomorrow. I feel like crawling in a cave with my laptop and just stay there. I'm on my old laptop cos now my dad takes away his laptop at 10pm. Psh, like I dont have my laptop T_T

thenameswit: chacha

shut up chago: weewee

thenameswit: i love you.

shut up chago: i love you too.

Heart

2009-04-01T20:42:00.000-07:00

this is what oovoo does

OOVOO

2009-03-30T15:36:00.000-07:00

i am SO tired, which is weird cos it's only 6:30. It's beautiful outside, a bit cold but lovely. Tomorrow is going to be amazing; weather wise. I'm not excited about tomorrow at all though, cos it's back to having classes and dealing with stress. Great. Chago got a haircut, i want layers in the front X_X i knoe i already got a haircut, but bleh. I'll wait like 3 months. My hair grows quickly. ANYWAYS JUST WANNA SAY, OOVOO IS WAY BETTER THAN SKYPE I EFFIN LOVE IT

Zak Ain't Whack

2009-03-29T21:20:00.000-07:00

So today has seriously been a lazy sunday. I talked to zak for a couple hours, posted a new video, made my senior page and have this AMZING idea for a new video. ZAK AND CADE ARE COMIN TO NYC W00T that seriously made my weekend. well, yeh thats pretty much it. i wanted to show off my senior page but that has some personal info x]

I Apologize

2009-03-28T21:45:00.000-07:00

i dont knoe what to say about today x]

Amazinggg

2009-03-26T22:04:00.000-07:00

i got RATATAT cd, love it.

internship went really well today.

when to virgin records in time square for the last time

i hate the fact that they're closing down.

i has some awesome new video ideas o.o

THE END

Just A Tad Pissed Off

2009-03-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

So on monday night, i made a video. I didn't put it up because im afraid of the risk im taking. The risk is; The Naked Brothers Band. Yes i used their music, but theres a joke at the end.. also i didn't blog on monday because i fell asleep while giving a file to amanda ): my arm just closed the computer, and i woke up at 7am with my huge headphones still on. xD

then on tuesday, last night--i had a wonderful day yesterday, until my dad took away my computer T_T i was talking to jay!! ): jeez, i felt really bad xD i kept telling chago on the phone "ugh, i didnt tell jay bye ):" i've noticed though, everytime i talk to chago on the phone, the convo is usually like this:

whitney: ...rawr.

chago: maaaaaaaaaah

whitney: *weird noises*

chago: *weirder noises*

and on like that xD whatever. k, i go school now

Why Am I So Happy?

2009-03-22T19:17:00.000-07:00

Movies and songs have changed my view on life. Weird right? xD idk. I saw futurama this movie about a purple star, and twilight. twilights scenery....wow. srsly I LOVE SCENERY. if a got took me to some open place with just trees I WOULD LOVE IT XD im so weird. but im in a really happy mood. im a little nervous about tomrrow, but idk. i feel like this week is going to be a good week. someone wish me good luck? Jay's song is seriously amazing. I have plans already, but I have to wait for spring to comee

Song Making Is Fun

2009-03-21T21:30:00.001-07:00

GOAL: MAKE MUSIC VIDEO OF JAY'S NEW SONG; ITS AMAZING!!

ofarevolution441: sullen eyes of a lonely child

ofarevolution441: she calls to you your response is mild

ofarevolution441: she rides on pillows of light pink clouds

ofarevolution441: she wants you to come your response is mild

ofarevolution441: she walks down the corridor still half asleep

ofarevolution441: she wants a hug goodbye in exchange for that missed kiss goodnight

ofarevolution441: put down your claws that are raised towards the ceiling

2009-03-20T21:27:00.000-07:00

i dont have much to say today. i had a good day. my dad gave me 3000 dollars in cash in my hand today for college. that really blew me away, i didnt knoe what to do or say. today was also a half a day, so i hung out with randeva most of the time. yeh, today was a good day. i dont knoe about tomorrow. i have to finish recording my new song :) OH AND I REALLYREALLYREALLY WANNA WORK ON MY COLLAB XD SEND THOSE CLIPS

FML.

2009-03-19T18:33:00.000-07:00

everyone has been sayin' it. why cant i? i feel like, kicking someone. i feel kinda happy though. i've been working a lot. Which is usually not the case for me. im still working, but mah i wanna sleep like now. too bad i cant... BUT I CANNNNT. xD Kari and i were singing that on the train. I IS HAVING SLEEPOVER ON THE 11TH OF APRIL! WEEEEEEEE. that'll be exciting. tomorrow is half a day, but i still dont wanna go to school xD oh and i have no doubt that chago will pass me in subs. gah, i feel so unloved on youtube xD thanks guys.

Blogging in Physics

2009-03-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

AEHGGHDFLGHRLEIDFJLN i'm at school atm, and i forgot to blog yesterday T_T
i hate it when that happens.
well, i had bad luck yesterday x] but i'm trying to put it behind me.
chago and i had a lovely convo about hugs.
): i really want to meet him *tear*
one day.

JAY is AWESOMEEEEE; he likes a lot of things i like :D and convinced me that im good at singing x]

Chago is lovely, that is all.

DONE

Best Thing That Happened All Day xD

2009-03-16T15:08:00.000-07:00

Whitney says:

LOL

meh, i'll probably learn a few things here and there about the drums so i can put it in one of my songs

Rhys says:

do you put your songs on youtube?

Whitney says:

mhmm

Rhys says:

i want see

whats your youtube?

Whitney says:

mk ^-^

www.youtube.com/rockinbluewit

Rhys says:

YES

ROCKINBLUEWIT

Whitney says:

o.o

HAHAHA

Rhys says:

I AM SUBBED TO YOU

Whitney says:

Rhys says:

rofl

Whitney says:

LOL

i had a feeling you were gonna say that

Rhys says:

i had absolutely no idea whp you were

man

DUH

Whitney says:

LOLOL XD

Rhys says:

of course

I LOVE YOU

ROFL

Whitney says:

HAHAHA XD

O GOD XD

im laughing a lot atm x]

Whitney says:

dudeee, uh so i has something to tell you

Rhys says:

*rhys quickly pulls out rowboat from his back pocket, sails over the atlantic and pats you on the back*

yes?

Whitney says:

uh, a couple of weeks ago i was planning my new music video

Rhys says:

YES I WILL MARYY YOU

Whitney says:

and i needed four guys in it

LOL

HAHAHAH XD

By Saturday;

2009-03-15T18:48:00.000-07:00

I wanna make a song with drums and with friends..and possibly get a wire for my mic >_>

im done.

with all the stupid test

and all the friend request

it's all nonsense

im done.

competing for nothing,

should i give up my love?

ya you knoe im bluffing

im done.

with all these tiny threats

my life's already a mess,

yes, i've always been a wreck.

im done

with all this bullshitting

i feel like im putting

not enough effort,

cos i've given up on so many things.

Funny Things

2009-03-14T22:07:00.000-07:00

COMPARING WHITNEY AND CHAGOS NOSE; WHO HAS LIGHTER SKIN?

BAHAHAHAHAHA BRIDG'S REACTION!!

thenameswit: xD so you're gonna ditch me?!

ofarevolution441: ...maybe?

ofarevolution441:

ofarevolution441: this was a fast conversation

ofarevolution441: GOODBYE!?

thenameswit: D:

thenameswit: *cries*

ofarevolution441: <3?

thenameswit: fineee <3

thenameswit: go have fun

ofarevolution441: whee!

[1:14:14 AM] Whitney says: i go bed

[1:14:21 AM] Whitney says: love u zak

[1:14:24 AM] Whitney says: night

[1:14:25 AM] Zak says: love you too

[1:14:27 AM] Zak says: dream about me

[1:14:33 AM] Zak says: without pants on

[1:14:43 AM] Whitney says: ................................

[1:14:47 AM] Whitney says: OMGGGGGGGGG

[1:14:48 AM] Whitney says: WTF

[1:14:49 AM] Zak says: DO IT

[1:15:07 AM] Whitney says: WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT DID YOU DO WITH ZAK?

[1:15:20 AM] Zak says: HE ISNT WEARING PANTS AND HE IS IN YOUR DREAMS

[1:15:33 AM] Whitney says: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

[1:18:05 AM] Whitney says: I WAS GONNA GO TO BED XD

[1:18:13 AM] Whitney says: I EVEN SAID BYE TO EVERYONE

[1:18:21 AM] Whitney says: AND YOU GAVE ME THAT DISTURBING IMAGE

[1:18:59 AM] Whitney says: im staying for another five mins

[1:20:20 AM] Zak says: imagine me dancing without pants on!

[1:20:26 AM] Whitney says: ..............................................................

[1:20:29 AM] Whitney says: OH GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[1:20:33 AM] Whitney says: GET IT AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[1:20:34 AM] Zak says: I'm just crankin that soulja boy

[1:20:37 AM] Zak says: without pants

[1:20:38 AM] Whitney says: .......................

[1:20:48 AM] Zak says: the breeze feels nice on my thighs

[1:20:49 AM] Whitney says: ...

[1:20:54 AM] Whitney says: I LITERALLY

[1:20:58 AM] Whitney says: JUST COVERED MY EYES

[1:21:32 AM] Zak says: uh oh

[1:21:35 AM] Zak says: what's happening now?

[1:21:44 AM] Whitney says: ewwwwwwww

[1:21:49 AM] Zak says: is that chocolate syrup being applied to my naked body?

[1:21:49 AM] Zak says: why yes

[1:21:53 AM] Whitney says: why zak

[1:21:53 AM] Zak says: yes it is!

[1:21:54 AM] Whitney says: why

[1:21:55 AM] Whitney says: ...

[1:21:59 AM] Whitney says: omg

[1:22:01 AM] Whitney says: WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

[1:22:02 AM] Whitney says: FUCK YOU

[1:22:03 AM] Whitney says: XD

[1:22:04 AM] Whitney says: EW

[1:22:46 AM] Zak says: =)

[1:23:00 AM] Zak says: I am finished now

[1:30:10 AM] Vivien ✈ says: OKAY BUT

[1:30:17 AM] Vivien ✈ says: IMAGINE BOTH OF THEM NAKED ON A TRAMPOLINE

[1:30:20 AM] Vivien ✈ says: COVERED IN CHOCO

[1:30:21 AM] Vivien ✈ says: AND THEN

[1:30:24 AM] Vivien ✈ says: ONE OF THEM FALLS

[1:30:26 AM] Vivien ✈ says: ONTO THE OTHER

[1:30:29 AM] Whitney says: .................................................................................................................

[1:30:31 AM] Vivien ✈ says: AND THEY ARE BOTH JUST

[1:30:35 AM] Vivien ✈ says: LAYING ON THE TRAMPOLINE

[1:30:37 AM] Vivien ✈ says: BOUNCING

[1:30:41 AM] Whitney says: zak and justin MAKE A PORNO?

[1:30:43 AM] Whitney says: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

[1:30:43 AM] Vivien ✈ says: AND GIGGLING LIKE SCHOOL CHILDREN

[1:30:44 AM] Whitney says: GET AWAY

[1:30:46 AM] Whitney says: AWAY VIVI

[1:30:50 AM] Whitney says: WHAT SICK MIND YOU HAVE

yeh thats mainly it. KTHNKSBAI

Wish Me Luck

2009-03-13T19:39:00.001-07:00

I has a long day tomorrow. :)

Brighter Side!

2009-03-12T20:00:00.000-07:00

thenameswit: >_

ofarevolution441: i wonder how it lost it's eye.

thenameswit: you stole it o.o

ofarevolution441: i ated it.

thenameswit: D:

thenameswit: POOR EYE!

thenameswit: >_

ofarevolution441: oopsy. it tasted good though. 0_

thenameswit: LOL YOU ATE ANOTHER EYE? XD

ofarevolution441: yeh. -_

thenameswit: xD o dear lawrd, eating all the right eyes

thenameswit: smileys will be half blind!

ofarevolution441: we should start a 2/3 smiley revolution

thenameswit: ZOMG YESH

thenameswit: unless i eat the other i

thenameswit: .

ofarevolution441: oh no.

2009-03-11T19:15:00.000-07:00

MAH; I IS GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME ATM! BE NICE JERKS; and fuck off if you're the one that keeps harassing me. I'm not in the mood for anything, I really am not. I'm getting a trim w/ layers cos mah hair is getting flat, bleh, on saturday or sunday. someone give me luck tomorrow? i'll smile for ya.

T_T

2009-03-10T19:15:00.000-07:00

today; friend was being a bitch.

GAP was fun fun fun.

Today is mom's birthday.

WOOWOOWOO!

Mah.

2009-03-09T19:24:00.000-07:00

Getting over guys is hard. I like several guys, but nothing special. I'm usually just super giggly. Mehh, I'll wait. Mah eyes hurt. Time for bed? Tomorrow im gonna be busy and nervous. This whole weekend is making nervous D: someone send me luck tomorrow? pls?? ♥ oh and JAY AND I ARE MAKING A SONG :D

So..Yeah..

2009-03-08T19:51:00.000-07:00

I like someone, but thats my secret. i went upstate today and that was fun :D i havent been there in a while. oh and i made two songs, that was intense. Here are my highlights of the day:

thenameswit: jesus, the weather is really going through its period

ofarevolution441: as you said in your vid that i watched/adored

thenameswit: adored? XD

thenameswit: aw, yay!

ofarevolution441: have you paused it at 2:09?

thenameswit: o.o *goes and pauses*

ofarevolution441: there is something about that face that made me laugh for like 30 seconds straight

thenameswit: oh no xD, i have to see it now

jaywinsthegame commented on this picture:Delete Comment(46 Minutes, 7 Seconds Ago)

i lyk songs. particularly ones of your creation.

kitty lives on: its done!

kitty lives on: LYRICS LYRICS

thenameswit: dangit xD

thenameswit: i dont have them typed

kitty lives on: okay

thenameswit: i'll send them to you manana

kitty lives on: YAY

kitty lives on: I GET 2nd VERSE

This Made My Day

2009-03-07T21:46:00.000-08:00

ofarevolution441: i'd be afraid of getting shot... like in nyc

thenameswit: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

thenameswit: goodnight yo <3>ofarevolution441: peace out, dawg

thenameswit: lol! xD
ofarevolution441: *fist pound*
thenameswit: HAH XD

Turning Point

2009-03-06T22:07:00.000-08:00

So I'm starting to like other guys again, it really feels weird. The song I'm listening to atm is amazing. A chiptune song yes. OH and I talked to Jay o.o IM HAPPY X] I kinda fangirled when he came in. It was unexpected xD Im always afraid of entertaining. He seemed to like me though x] he twittered me. that was lovely. This weekend im gonna try not to go on the internet because i feel like i wasted my night. mah. later gators!

Andrew Again?

2009-03-05T19:27:00.001-08:00

Today was AMAZING. Well at least the part where I went to my internship. We got there before Gauruv and chrystian did :D Andrew was there surprisingly. I didn't really feel like talking to him, but I ended up talking to him a lot. There was a point where I had to act with him. He basically saves me from "the abusive prince". He was SUPPOSE to hold me and walk me to the door, but he shoved me xD hahahahah I still think he doesnt like me. There was a point where we did kinda flirt and I was happy inside x] He was playing with markers and i took one, and then i put it back and he took it and stood it up again so I took it again, but he tried grabbing it before me, so I laughed. Then i did it again with another marker and he tried grabbing it again, but i was too fast (twss). Then he thought I was gonna grab the last one, and he was about to grab it, but I just looked at him and i laughed at him x] I noticed that there were times where he didnt like me, like while we were in the closet I was kinda like "AHH XD ITS SO CLOSED IN" and he was like "stop yelling" xD hahaha, oh well. and there was another time where i was trying to get the video done so I was like "practice practice!" he seemed annoyed. Meh, hopefully Natty can help me and make him like me x] she even said "i'll make him fall in love with you" xD GAH IM SUCH A SUCKER FOR LOVE. GET ME OUT OF IT PLS.

Dear Bighead

2009-03-04T19:57:00.000-08:00

We've been through a lot together. Tbh, I didn't think I would be this close to you. In fact, I never saw this coming. At first I kinda had the impression that you liked me, which eventually led to me liking you. My friends are to blame also. Always telling me that I liked you, even when I didnt. That happens with almost any guy I talk to. It's cause I'm not that sociable with guys in person. Or ..I think I scare them off. xD I'm a puncher and a yeller, I get easily pissed off and am often moody. Most guys don't like that. Usually guys who like me, well Im just not attracted to them. Sure, I love the attention I get when I flirt with guys, but it doesn't necessarily mean that I like those guys. I've came to realize, that most of the guys I used to like were just to make me feel like I could have a boyfriend any day. I used to talk to my friends about these guys as if they were about to ask me out. But tbh, most of them I just liked because of their looks. I don't remember liking a guy for their personality. In fact, most of the guys I knew were jerks. Now with you, I first started getting attracted to you physically, but it was easy for me to tell my friends that I didn't like you. But when I started liking you because we became so close, it was really hard to hide. I couldn't stop smiling every time you called, I felt way happier when I was talking to you. I kinda felt like liking you was going to be like liking any other guy. It wasn't though. For the first time in my life, I told YOU how i felt. I've never told a guy that I liked them. I mean if I did, I probably didn't mean it. I've never felt so comfortable around a guy where I could just tell him anything. I still feel weird when I tell you the most randomised nonsense. After I told you that I liked you, I've actually been thinking about the future. When it comes down to it, I really have this fear that I'll never get the chance to do anything with you. I feel like you would slowly lose me and run off with your own life. I even can see you getting married to a environmentalist x] The more and more I think that way, the more I see you as a friend. So in a way, I guess you're getting what you want. There will be a point where I won't like you anymore, but deep down, if we do stay in contact, I will always have this little bit of hope that you'll like me back again one day.

Rawr Tired

2009-03-03T19:34:00.000-08:00

I have never been so tired in my life. I haven't been getting enough sleep, and now I'm rushing to finish my homework. I wish I could have gone to bed the same time as Chago did, but gah my darn procrastination. This cursing week thing isn't working out for me too much. I said the eff word today and today was my third day xD I'm still gonna try, I've been becoming more aware of what I say and when I say it. I feel proud that I can actually control it sometimes, cos my other friend is trying to do the same thing, but is epically failing. My neck is in complete pain, rawrrrrr. GAP was fun today. ANDREW CUT HIS HAIR O.O I WAS LIKE O_O i miss his long hair xD now he just reminds me of liam. xD

ZOMGOMFGWTFBQQYAY :D

2009-03-02T15:58:00.000-08:00

I GOT ANDREW BRAVENERS SWEATER IN THE MAIL AND ITS LOVELY AND WE HAD A SNOW DAY TODAY AND THIS IS A RUN OFF SENTENCE, BUT I DONT GIVE A HOOT BECAUSE I HAD A WONDERFUL DAY. I'M JUST REALLY TIRED AND I GOT TO TALK TO FIONA, CHAGO, CADE, ZAK AND OTHER PEOPLE TOO TODAY :D SO WONDERFUL. AND I'M ACTING REALLY STRANGEEEE. BLEHHH I REALLY HOPE THERE'S ANOTHER SNOW DAY TOMORROW GAHDSLGHBFDJGBH LOVE ♥

I Want Me Some Views

2009-02-28T22:00:00.000-08:00

One Day

2009-02-27T22:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wish I was a little different. Better singing, recording, and just better at playing instruments. I wish I was a better student, better friend, better everything. The only thing that I feel great about is my videos and songs. But I still want to improve so much. I went to the music studio, which is downstairs in my house, today and I think i might go there more often. I want to make songs that will actually make me have goosebumps. One day, just one day.

CAPS BLOG

2009-02-26T19:27:00.000-08:00

HOMEWORK ALL DAY.

NEW VIDEO IDEAS.

HOW COME I DONT HAVE MANY VIEWS?!

MY VOICE IS STILL KINDA IFFY.

I MISSED MY INTERNSHIP TODAY.

DOULE YOU TEA EFF.

IM TALKING TO CHAGO & AMANDA

THEY'RE HOES.

IDK WHY I'M USING CAPS!

I GUESS ITS KINDA FUN.

I FOUND THIS CUTE ENGLISH GUY.

SATURDAY IS MY PARTNER PARTY;

RANDEVA AND SOPHIE ARE GOING :D

I HAVE TO THINK OF THINGS TO DO.

I JUST REALIZED THAT RANDEVA IS PROBABLY MY CLOSEST FRIEND AT SCHOOL ATM.

HER, KARLA AND KAINAT.

ok, no more caps cos i tired

I Fell Asleep at 9:45pm

2009-02-25T04:48:00.000-08:00

I had a wonderful long day yesterday. Like seriously, I usually hate tuesdays, but I was so lucky ^-^ I really was super energetic o.o so when I got back home which was around 9pm, I just crashed. I tried staying awake because I had an essay to do, but when my dad took the laptop for 10 mins, I crasheddddddddddddd. My dad isn't coming till 11am...so I'm doing homework and something else >_> I simply don't feel like going to school cause I have a lot of work due friday, and thursday i have my internship. I didn't get to talk to anyone last night rly ): I miss chago. Ohh, btw! I have so many brilliant ideas for videos o.o i might do a vlog/skit today, and this AMZIN thing on saturday with my friends x] im so excited

Inspired By Mister Dyer

2009-02-23T14:31:00.000-08:00

* I consider myself more white than peruvian because I was raised in America.

* I love what the city has to offer, I just hate the memories I have created.

* My favorite thing to do is to ride in the car for hours with my music on full blast.

* I listen to my own songs on my iPod to feel better about my singing, but tbh I don't like it as much as other people do.

* I always had this feeling that english people disliked me because of my first experience with this english guy >_>

* I dislike homework with a passion and think it's a waste of my time.

* I'm a virgin in just about anything you can think of >_> (sex, dating, relationships, kiss, no piercing, no tattoos, never dyed my hair)

* I don't knoe the definition of love, but from what my friends are telling me, i am "in love" with someone, and i'm trying so hard to win his heart ):

* I secretly follow trends, but mix it with a little me.

* I've always wanted to recieve a necklace and sweater from a guy i like...and i did :) well, one of them anyway.

* I know that I'm not liked by many people atm and it does bother me.

* I really don't know what I'm doing with my life right now.

* I like attention, so if I deny anything, I'm probably enjoying it.

* I hate listening to the acoustic guitar, but I love playing it.

* I've been thinking about scientology recently, about how fears and stress are caused, but the way the fix it, I find it completely ridiculous.

* If I did something wrong, I give myself a harder time about the situation.

* I don't eat right (healthy) even if I know I should.

* I'm an avoider and runner, I don't like facing my problems unless they're easy to solve.

OH AND I GOT PARTNERED!

Today..I Dont Know What To Say

2009-02-22T21:35:00.000-08:00

My sister woke me up 1:30 pm T_T wow tomorrow i'm not gonna be ready to go to school. I have a crap load of homework tomorrow. teacher's dont get that this is senior year xD jerkssss. Anyways, I just saw a chago look a like o.o i was like whoa..hes cute. oh and check this out. my throat really hurts, but everytime i cough i get hiccups T_T ugh, i hate hiccups. i dont knoe why im up. gaah, well i made a new song and i really like it. im also looking at other collleges in oregon, cos i RLY DONT WANNA STAY IN NYC. AND I MEAN IT. i will not apply to any ny colleges. its done, over with BLEHHH oh and THIS IS THE CUTEST THING EVRRRRRRRR thanks amandaaaa x]

I've Been Forgetting

2009-02-21T09:46:00.000-08:00

Last night was awesome. Saw Caroline and went on Blogtv AND CHAGO CAME BACK :D FINALLY! I don't have much to say. Especially since I really haven't done too much during the week. Kari has my camera!! GAAAH I never thought I would miss something so much D: I just called Kari and she's coming over tomorrow!! I'm so excited, I invited Siobhan and Randeva too!! Party time once again :D I'm gonna clean my room, do some of my homework and hope to get it done by manana. I feel really good today, I have no idea why. I think it's cause I'm cleaning my room and listening to music. Oh!! And Hannah just called me! She's with Bridget! Talk about craziness! I wish I could meet them. D: Oh well, as long as they're having fun I'm happy. My two daughters :) Weeeeee Now I have to meet Chago and call up Hannah and Bridget. ): *sigh*

Oh and Kayla; BlogSpot was being a little twat; I couldnt fix everything in my last blog, it cut off you and some of the things I said to Leah. x] So here;

Kayla--What can I say about you, my sheep twin. It's been four years already and I have a feeling that we'll be friends until we get to be 98 and lose our memories. Even then I have a feeling that we'll IM each other and be like "who the heck are you?"-wit "SHEEP!?"-kayla. Yeh, you were my first internet friend and I'm glad that we're still together ^-^

Here's the reason for Leah

Leah--You're simply amazing. You're very talented and friendly, and Im glad that I'm able to call you my friend and tell you my love stories x] I miss talking to you!

So I Meant To Put This On My Channel...

2009-02-19T21:12:00.000-08:00

ThatZak--A one of a kind guy who I'm glad to call one of my best friends. He's like the brother I never had. Even though he's usually a jerk, I still love and care for him very much.

YourAverageAdam--One of the first youtubers I met and one of my favorite guys. He's someone I would never want to lose. I think we have one of the best insiders.

ShutUpChago--I talk to him everyday. I've made too many nicknames for him. NO HE IS NOT RELATED TO ME AND WE'RE NOT DATING YET. Hah...just kidding about the "yet". But yeh, I love him with all my heart.

Strawburry17--I feel like she's my older sister. Probably one of the best people I've met on youtube. She has such a kind heart and the fact that we're bff4l makes me smile everyday.

FionaShizz--She's my favorite European. She's like my little scottish sister. We sing together, make jokes together and she's just wonderful. If I could I'd fly over to Scotland now just to hang out with her.

FeellineCancer--She's someone that I would never want to lose because we connect. Even our first convo, we decided to become bff4l from that! I love her to death and I still owe her dinner.

Skypers;

BirdRage--You can be a jerk sometimes, but I love how supportive you are. LCSSings--You're simply amazing. OmgOctopus--You're crazy and lovely. Your protesting makes me laugh x] I love it. Voldey--You're such a funny guy! I love talking to you. It makes my day.

JeremyTheNerd--You're adorable, especially since you have my autograph xD Daughters; InASmallTown50--GAH I LOVE YOUUUU!! I love our random CAPS convos and pervertedness. You make me feel like me x] TerrifyingTaco--You're lovely, but your name makes me hungry x] You're my night buddy. The one I talk to when everyone is asleep. You're awesome x] BirdRage--T_T i already wrote about you. I love you all.

ChaCha<3

2009-02-17T10:23:00.000-08:00

ohai

I was joking with you when I said I was leaving last night. >_>

When I decided to say "JK" you had already left.

I love you weiner. And I will miss you.

..slut.

that was from chago ): I MISS HIM. ok, well going to go to GAP soon, so LATER GATORS

ok so today was ridiculous xD

natty and i went to virgin records! i got an awesome shirt, but here's how i got that awesome shirt.

so natty and i decide to go all the way to the lowest floor to find a shirt. i'm in the left part of the floor and then i point to the other side and say "lets go here." Then this HOT guy turns around, and i go "i think i pointed the right direction" and he turns around and just stares at me while hes going up the stairs. xD I felt so weird and giggly cause no guy has ever stayed starin at me. usually they ignore me. goddd, if he wasnt with his dad i would have followed him around. gah. oh well.

THEN we went to this scientology church for fun. IT WAS SO STUPID XD the film made NO SENSE!! i had a blast just making fun of the movie. i still miss chago x]

I Made A Mistake

2009-02-16T16:22:00.000-08:00

I've apologized plenty of times and tbh im not gonna continue. i've done so much today. i'm tired, i dont think i can change his mind about me anymore. i've never done this to anyone, and i dont knoe why i did xD i really dont so ..MAH. yesterday was AMAZING. my goodness. sleepover and everything. we watched a movie and just started having so much fun. prank called chago but he doesnt have his CELLPHONE!! HE LOST IT D:< that jerk. god, im gonna miss him ): even if it is two days. i didnt really get to talk to him this weekend.

Sends Love

2009-02-14T21:27:00.000-08:00

I GOT A BALLOON FROM MI MADRE ^-^

idc what anyways says. i love balloons.

i flirted with a couple guys. mehhhh.

made a video :D weeeeeeeeeeee.

um, i really didn't do much. xD sad.

just went on blogtv most of the time.

TOMORROW WILL BE EXCITING

hanging out with friendssssssssss.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ok, i really dont knoe what to say.

i need to do more things GAAH.

oh and...

FIONA IS NOW MY EUROPEAN BFF4L

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Because Of Stupid Valentines

2009-02-13T20:05:00.000-08:00

i'm a weirdo. i made a song for valentines/chago. here's the lyrics;

Even though you hate this holiday,

And I’ve been broken so many ways

I still have hope that you’d like me.

But you probably don’t see, how sensitive

I can be so just listen

Why can’t New Jersey and Delware,

Move out of my way

My heart is so weak

I can’t speak

Because of stupid Valentines

I apologize

These aren’t lies

Because of stupid Valentines

I don’t see what the point is

When you told me how you kiss

Kinda tempted me,

Set my thoughts free,

I felt twisted.

The red head was like yo son,

Just go on and catch him

Well, I felt like I was headed towards more devastation

Staring at my walls, staring at the ceiling,

Realizing I’m not getting requited feelings

Pay attention here’s a quick lesson

If you have something to say

Better get it out the way cause

I’ve got so many voices in my head

IF YOU WANT; IM ME PLS :D its really lovely.

shut up chago: love.

shut up chago: and thankyou for the song.

shut up chago: f'real.

shut up chago: <3

shut up chago: night weiner.

thenameswit: ^-^

thenameswit: byeeeee

SABES QUE?

2009-02-12T19:35:00.000-08:00

So I went on FACEBOOK the other day and found this. Wow, I'm glad I dont go on facebook often x] ANYWAYS; today was an amazing days. I offically wanna have my internships babies. xD jkjkjk. No but seriously, GAP makes me look foward to tuesdays and thursday and trust me, I hate tuesdays x] no offense nessa! I hate fridays too, which is the reason why i'm not really looking foward for tomorrow. I kinda just wanna stay home. Well, we'll see what happens. GAP was so amazing today. After GAP, sophia, lily, natty, randeva and i went to hang out. First at the pizza shop, then just around x] We seriously had a blast. We're gonna try to do the same on tuesday since there's NO SCHOOL! WOO! Gah, I really wanna see Chago and Nessa this month though, like seriously that's been my goal since October. That reminds me, tomorrow I have to record my song. ITS AMAZING, vivien helped ^-^ Chago's making buffalo fur, rawr. GAH, someone please help me stay positive tomorrow. It's very hard for me to smile on tuesdays and fridays. More fridays then tuesdays.

thenameswit: and how would we fight in spanish?

shut up chago: DIOS MIO, POR QUE ME SIEMPRE QUEIRES HABLAR ASI? -chago

shut up chago: POR QUE NUNCA ME PONGAS ATTENCION. -weenie

shut up chago: PERO SI SIEMPRE QUEIRES ATENCION, NO PUEDO DARLO CADA MOMENTO -chago

shut up chago: SABES QUE? OLVIDATE. -weenie

Valentine Should Go Away; MY WEEK IS GOOD D:<

2009-02-11T17:33:00.000-08:00

I LOVE TWITTER + SKYPE!

Yeh I had a good today.

I really missed being on skype.

My BUT I CANT video is amazing.

So far I've gotten good cmts.

A lot about Twilight T_T, which I'm getting annoyed about.

I apologize if a lot of people didnt like that I posted so many twitters.

I really need to pee...my dad took this laptop last night so I didn't get to blog.

I was so mad cause I had a really good day yesterday.

Today I had an easy going day, how lovely ^-^

This has been makin' me feel better.

I feel like some people still dont like me for that thing that happen >_> but eh, they really have to get over that stupid RUMOR.

Valentines day is coming soon and i've got no one, AGAIN.

Meh, i'm used to it.

And no girls, i love you and all, but i dont want my first valentine to be a girl x]

It's just how I am.

Best Way To Hang Up

2009-02-09T18:49:00.000-08:00

Sillies. I had a strange day today. I've been trying to upload my "But I Can't" video but it's taking ages. I shouldn't have went to Lani's house. At least my hair looks great :D I went bike riding o.o I WAS LIKE YEEEEEEEEY. Xcept for some reason my knee and side started hurting a lot. I started dancing in my backyard. I don't feel as safe as I did before, because the gate has holes now T_T I'm calling chago too much x] I refuse to go on aim. RAWR. When he did pick up though, I was trying to say something and he kept interuppting me, so finally i said "YAKNOEWUHT 4GIT YEW" and hung up. It was lovely. But He didn't call back T_T I lose. rawr. hmmm, i wonder if i have homework. for the most part...GAAH hes calling T_T ahhhh i has math tarea, brb.

Procrastinating

2009-02-08T20:07:00.000-08:00

Gah, i'm such a fool. Trying to relax, but I'm not doing anything better for myself. I've been thinking about Oregon more and more lately. I'm taking PSU very seriously. I don't want to stay in this hell hole I call home. I really just want to start over. I know myself well, whenever I'm somewhere new, I'm not the same person. I tried changing in the beginning of senior yr, I kinda did, but people just brought me back to the same old me. Idk whether thats a good or bad thing, but to me i just don't like it. The weirdest thing happened today though, I saw myself...driving?! idk, whatever. ANYWAYS, im making a new song :D its not depressing! its lovely! unless i change the lyrics tomorrow, but i probably wont. made a videooooooooooo ^_^ it'll be up by tomorrow hopefully. (but i cant music video) I LEARNED HOW TO USE VEGASSS. WOO. oh and one more thing T_T I STILL LIKE HIM; ADHLVDFDGH RAWR GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD

"YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND"

2009-02-07T21:03:00.000-08:00

Says chago's little cousins while I was talking to him on the phone x] It was so adorable. Then when Chago put me on the phone with them, one of them said "SHE'S A GIRL HEHEHEHE" xD I LOL'D It was lovely. One of his cousins called him Big Head x]I called him Big Head...but then he called me Weenie in the butt T_T all of his cousins we're rofling T__________________T Chago called me while I was watching Sleepy Hallow, gah it was nuts. I can never watch a movie in peace x] Idc though, now I found nicknames for Chago and I have memories :D

Lately, I haven't really cared about my hair xD It's such a weird feeling. I've been a bit lazy, yet relaxed. I'm still getting harrassed by people about certain things, but I'm not letting it completely control my actions. Sending the rest of the gifts on monday hopefully. Rawr rawr. I'm still hoping for lovely days.

Later Gators.

RAWR

2009-02-06T20:46:00.000-08:00

Can people stop spreading rumors and talking about me? If you dont understand something, just ask me. *headache* NIGHT

ITS SO EMPTY D:

TYPE TYPE TYPE

BYE

Thinking Of Lovely Days

Tired

J vs. J

Just..something x]

Ok, so this doesn't feel right.

Uh So

Listen

BABIES

So TIRED X_X

ALMOST forgot.

Jay<3

Lols.

Lets Just Say

Short.

AEHGJFLGDRNFG

MEMOIR

Reasons Why I Love

Swine You!

AH:D+AW )8

Triple Sneeze Day

Why Didn't I Bring My Camera?

Today I Felt--

Ya..

IDEAS

Ugh X_X

I KEEP FORGETTING

Flirting

Buttons

A Load Off My Shoulder

Things Can Happen

WHERES THE CHAPSTICK?

Crap XD

K, Can I go Now?

I'm Hurt

rawrrawr

*DoubleSigh*

Dont Forget To Be Awesome

What I Realized

"My Daughter's a Blogger?"-Dad

You've Been On My Mind

HOMEWORK

It's On

Will He Let Go?

X_X O JESUS

Kinda Tired

Wow, Made Out W/ Chago--Now What?

k--here's what happened.

I Wonder--

Hay guyz

So Since I'm Having a Sleepover in a Couple Hours..

X_X

Wuh?

Two Words

I Am A Bottle

BRB

Train Ride

What The Fuck Am I Doing

Heart

OOVOO

Zak Ain't Whack

I Apologize

Amazinggg

Just A Tad Pissed Off

Why Am I So Happy?

Song Making Is Fun

FML.

Blogging in Physics

Best Thing That Happened All Day xD

By Saturday;

Funny Things

Wish Me Luck

Brighter Side!

T_T

Mah.

So..Yeah..

This Made My Day

Turning Point

Andrew Again?

Dear Bighead

Rawr Tired

DoubleSigh

Sends Love