'Its All Down Hill From Here'

Today, I sitll felt tired as hell. I mean I know I shouldn't be staying up so late and it's most likely the reason why i've been feeling shitty, but i can't help myself. Everyone is on around...late time. I went to manhattan today around 11am. I didn't do much, just bought a fall out boy hat and waited till henry and kadin arrived. Henry finally got taller, still not taller than me, but at least he grew. I was so excited and happy when they got to the resturant, but i also had this feeling that i was going to be left out or say something wrong. Like seriously, henry and i dont have that many things in common anymore. Metal bands suck, even my dad says so and he knoes what music is. I was really just walking around with them not saying anything. Just listening! I don't know why I have so much anger in me, I just kinda want to be alone. I wish I didn't have to go to school tomorrow. Ugh, it felt like the weekend already. Well, at least I have only two days of school next week and one of those days is a trip. Oh joy!

-_- i am so not in the mood to do or say ANYTHING right now

Yet again, Chago makes me feel better:

shut up chago: take on meee
thenameswit: TAKE MEEE ONNNN
shut up chago: I'LL BE GOOOOOONE
thenameswit: in a day or TWOOOOOOOOOOOOO
thenameswit: is it that?
thenameswit: idek
shut up chago: yeah x]
thenameswit: OH YAY
shut up chago: OMG
shut up chago: ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?
shut up chago: smiles and her laughterrrr
shut up chago: is the only thing that i've been waiting foorrrrrr
shut up chago: a timeee
shut up chago: regardless of our distances and our hope, grows greaterrr
thenameswit: errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
shut up chago: trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
shut up chago: the only thing i've been waiting for
shut up chago: i hope it's something worth the waiting
shut up chago: 'cause it's the only thought that i ever feel
shut up chago: thunder storms could never stop me
shut up chago: cause there's NO ONE IN THE WORLD LIKE WHITNEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
thenameswit: ROFL
thenameswit: OMG
shut up chago: she's simple yet confusing
shut up chago: her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble
shut up chago: days seem blah
shut up chago: too much typing
shut up chago: CUASE THERE'S NO ONE THE WORLD LIKE WHITNEYYYYYYYYYYYYY
thenameswit: LOLOLOL
shut up chago: do you know that song? xD
thenameswit: OMG
thenameswit: YES
thenameswit: SWEENEY TODD
shut up chago: um
shut up chago: no. lmao
thenameswit: wait
thenameswit: rofl
shut up chago: LMAO
thenameswit: i was thinking
shut up chago: xDDD FAIL.
thenameswit: "CAUSE THERES NO PLACE LIKE LONDON"
thenameswit: and then i was like ...waiit...
shut up chago: no x]
thenameswit: um
shut up chago: i'll send it to you
shut up chago: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gOCdza__o8&feature=related
thenameswit: :O i knoe this band
shut up chago: that was my favorite band
shut up chago: back in the day. x]
shut up chago: i still love them even though they broke up. x]
shut up chago: sonny moore solo = not so great
thenameswit: ^.^
shut up chago: replace emily with whitney xD
thenameswit: emily is my cousins name
shut up chago: well
shut up chago: this one's about whitneyyyyyyyy
thenameswit:
thenameswit: you make my day chago<3>

Not Enough Sleep

The word of the day; CRANKY! So last night was an awesome night because I was talking to Kadin till 1am, and we seriously had a good convo. After that though, I wasn't able to sleep. I kept waking up thinking it was 6:30 then trying to go back to sleep. When I got to school my eyes were so heavy and you know how english class is usually the dullest thing ever, well that didn't help me stay awake. Government you really have to pay attention to what everyone is saying. So I tried my best to open my eyes wide so it would LOOK like I was paying attention. Gym woke me up, but on the wrong side of the bed. Everyone in my grade knows that when it comes to volley ball I'm violent. I don't know why, but it just gets all my stress and anger out. I wasn't even mad, I mean last night I was happy and I was hoping it would continue on today. But man, someone ticked me off and I just started hitting the ball harder and harder. Then in chemistry, I just went out of it.




So this guy named Bilal claims I'm in a gang just because my sneakers have blue bandanas in it. At first it was funny, but now its just annoying. Especially when he was like "You shouldn't talk because your a cript(sp)" and i said " YOU should talk to ME like that!"I was just about to rant on his ass. Then David mocked me and I said "SHUT UP" threw my sweater at his head and said "FUCK YOU" I got up to get my sweater and I noticed he was covering his arms (since i tend to pinch his arms really hard). So I smack him on the head and he said "YOU TOLD ME TO PROTECT MY ARMS!" and i was like "well, now protect your head."

Math was pretty bad too:

thenameswit: my friend karla said that she couldnt come to hang out with me and kadin
thenameswit: and i knoe my dad wouldnt let me and kadin hang out alone
thenameswit: kadin's being our old friend henry though x]
thenameswit: henry makes fun of me so much though ugh
thenameswit: so i tell her "NO BUT KARLA I NEED YOU"
thenameswit: "my parents only trust you! do you really think they'll let me go to manhattan by myself?!"
thenameswit: and then david comes in and says
thenameswit: "you've never been to manhattan by yourself?"a
thenameswit: and the first thing i do is turn to him and looked him straight in the eye
thenameswit: and said
thenameswit: "DONT YOU FUCKING MESS WITH ME NOW DAVID, I DONT WANNA DEAL WITH YOUR SHIT"
thenameswit: and then he repeated himself again
thenameswit: and i said "YOU, SHUT THE FUCK UP"
shut up chago: dawg
shut up chago: you should've socked him.
thenameswit: i did
thenameswit: i do like everyday
shut up chago: lmao xD
thenameswit: for no reason x]
shut up chago: in teh face?
shut up chago: *the
thenameswit: nah, in the arm, back of the head, leg, back and sometimes a punch in the stomach

*sigh* i've just been so moody and angry and strange. Alina came over though and we had fun just talking about stuff. She stayed till 8:30 or so. Then Kevin from sayhellotoseven asked me to sub for sayhellotoseven and i was like YEY :D but the video took me about an hour or two to edit. Ugh, hopefully I'll gain SOME subscribers out of this because seriously I'm going nowhere on youtube, i'm like at a stop. I dont care, yet i feel like if i had a bit more subs I'd feel way better about making videos. But whatever, I still love making videos, even without an audience.

Tomorrow BETTER be good since I'm spending the day with Kadin and Henry, otherwise I will be pissed off as hell this weekend.

Kissing

It's official, I haven't written in my journal for several days. I think I've gave up. I won't give up on this though, I need somewhere to write down how I feel about things, right? Today, my feeling is ..strange. After putting out my Disturbia video, the related videos had to do with Disturbia the movie. So I clicked on several of the trailers and most of them had kissing. Wanna knoe a secret, (most of you probably know this already but,) i've never had my first kiss. Not even a kiss on the cheek (that aren't from friends -_-). I did have several dreams of recieving my first kiss though. All of those dreams felt so realistic! But how the hell would I know since I dont even know how a kiss feels like.

AW ISNT THAT THE CUTEST PICTURE IN THE WORLD! I showed it to my new friend sarah, she agrees ;). I'm actually jealous that those little kids have kissed before I have. I guess I'm just waiting for the right guy. Cause I've had three guys ask me out, but turned them down because I didn't just want to give up my first kiss or anything, like that. Not just that, but I'm a very senitive person. One kiss would probably mean the world for me, I mean have you read my other blogs?!I really do take things to heart. I'm just a very very strange girl. You're never gonna guess who I really want to be with right now though, and I'm never gonna tell x]

Chago Day

Guess what! Got my laptop yesterday, but after that I've forgotten to write in my journal :\ I don't feel like writing in there anymore. I mean like I have this and I write in it everyday. But my journal like has some things that I wouldn't say here. Idk what to do. I'm really happy to have my laptop back though, I feel like everything brand new and etc. It's a great feeling I suppose. I do have to start EVERYTHING over though, even my stories. I did save all my stories, but they were in a different format and i dont have it now :( really sad, cause my stories were like LONG. I find it funny that yesterday i blogged too early and today too late. Today was a good itunes day. After watching Mac's ipod commercial thing i downloaded it and other videos AND got the song disturbia♥. ITS MY GUILTY PLEASURE OK!! i've listened to it seven times already. Chago and i had an awesome convo today. I seriously love talking to that kid. he makes my day x] Speaking of Chago, i have a lovely picture of him ;) aw, he looks so SMALL!! chago if you see this BFF4L dude.

thenameswit: omgomgomgomg

thenameswit: chago

thenameswit: i love you

shut up chago: i love you too, didi.

thenameswit: didi?!

thenameswit: WHO IS DIDI!?

thenameswit: D:<

shut up chago: you!

thenameswit: i'm didi?

thenameswit: since when?

thenameswit: i thought i was wiwi

shut up chago: lmao

shut up chago: weezy

thenameswit: x]

thenameswit: cheezy

thenameswit: hahahaha

shut up chago: o bby ;D

thenameswit: ROFL xD shush <3

oh also, john says i'm the female version of chago and chago is the male version of me x]

Identification Please

I fail at life period. So today I was suppose to take my SAT's, I got up early and it felt like a friday, so I didn't mind getting up early. I was a bit nervous, but i was even more nervous when I looked at the paper and it said "need proper PICTURE ID". The last ID i had expired two years ago. So I was basically screwed. My dad said "well if i come with you saying that you're my daughter they should let you still take the test. I didn't believe that, but I went anyways. It doesn't hurt to try? I met up with my friend Sharon and she was looking at my ticket, my ticket had the WRONG SCHOOL. My own school information was wrong -_-, so now i was double screwed. We went in, and went straight to the office and the lady said "your daughter needs an ID" she was nice about it though. That's just great, I'm taking my SAT's in nov -_-. My lucky shirt didn't help me out today. :\ There's SOME good news though, my video is uploading on trv, for once. So woo? ugh, who am i kidding, this is a disaster.

Female Version of Peter Pan

It's official, scratch that, it's been official. I wanna stay 17 forever. It's a lovely age don't you think? Not "too" old and not that young. I guess the only reason why I'm saying that is because I feel like I'm a failure at being grown up. I'm the kind of person who rather hang out with their family and nothing else. That's changing a bit though. I've been hanging out with Kadin like at least once a week. It's fun though, and I can say I have a life now. Oh, and Kadin, Karla and I are suppose to hang out in Manhattan on Thursday. I so to my dad "so thursday..." and he was like "we're going to manhattan" xD i was like "well, yeh that was my plan too, but i wanna go with my friends so could you just drop us off and etc?" "sure" :D plans do work out sometimes. My mom yesterday wanted to knoe what boy was in here house xD Her reactions make me laugh sometimes. She was like "and he was in your room???" "Dont worry mom, the door was open" "no no no, i mean your room was clean?" hahahahaha. So I know now my parents trust me, they're just weird. So let's talk about what happened today.

12am-??: couldn't sleep for some strange reason

6:30-finally fell asleep, but MOM woke me up -_-

6:30-6:50-TRYING to take a little nap.

7:00-7:45-getting ready for bleh school.

7:50-8:07-mom complaining about idk, the whole drive while my sister and i ignored her.

english-I WAS SO TIRED, WHY DID YUMERIS PICK ON ME!

government-I was trying to participate, but she never picked on me :\

gym-meh, was kinda fun till KAINAT gave me 2 hours worth of SILENCE -_- (jerk)

physics-i got to stand up like 649375 times at least. (i dont like sitting down and do nothing)

lunch-kainat still gave me the silenceee, so i talked to kim. (jerkkkkkkkk)

math-ok, but didnt do to much.

art-kinda fun just filming, but really? what the hell am i gonna do with the film if my laptop isnt working xD

back home-got an email from kadin so i emailed him back AND made a new song :)

{i dont knoe what its called yet & not done}

Pesky mosquito bite
little kids that wanna fight
there’s a pimple on my chin

alcohol spilled here
oh please mother dear
don’t yell in my ear

is it my fault that I wanna punch you in the face?
I don’t care cause I’ve made too many mistakes

Help me get out of this stupid stage
I wanna stay young, I don’t wanna change.

Sneaking boys when you’re out
oh please don’t shout
I’m too busy now

fail a class or two
oh boy I’m pretty screwed
cause its my senior year too

is it my fault that I wanna punch you in the face?
I don’t care cause I’ve made too many mistakes

Help me get out of this stupid stage
I wanna stay young, I don’t wanna change.
What happened to me swinging on the monkey bars
But now everything is way too bizarre.

Fine You Were Right, This Wound Needs Ice

So Tokyo Police Club made a NEW remix of the song Juno and I swear I have never felt so happy or even spiritual this whole month, well..when i say this i mean September because today is October. Kadin is suppose to be coming over today, but I feel like I always have to call him to remind him. xD It happens I guess, but today I didn't call him, I'm kinda waiting for him to call me. I seriously just might end up calling him. blah. GAH so yeh, silly me i just called him and it went straight to voice mail, but its one of those voicemails that go "Hello? Nah I'm kidding, I'm not really here right now" -_- and i was like "Hey...GAH" Cause that was seriously that fastest I've ever heard someone pick up. That jerk. So lately, I've been addicted to myspace again, but just mainly cause of the remix song. I don't reply to some photo cmts and just cmts which is kinda of mean of me, but i really dont want to get sucked into cmting back and forth again. That's only on days when I'm EXTREMELY bored. Today, Kadin should be here and we SHOULD be hanging out till 2, then my dad and him leaves and i can do my homework from 2-5:30. So last night, I stayed up till 12am listening to tokyo police club, I also printed out three new pictures from them :D I might google them right now just for the hell of it. I miss collecting tokyo police club pictures. Hopefully, I'm like their number one fan..everrrr. I already dedicated a video to them, but I might do it again when my laptop actually TURNS ON. This saturday is going to suck. :\ SAT's are never fun. Oh and two more things , one trv got partnered and two matt's quitting.

Ok, so uh now its 4:34 before it as 11:30. Kadin came over x] I had a fun time, I really don't trust writing in this blog just because I know whos reading this. I will tell everyone this much:
thenameswit: ooh lemme tell you what happened
thenameswit: ok so, kadin came around..12:45?
thenameswit: and my dad was leaving at 2pm
thenameswit: and my dad was gonna kick kadin out at 2pm
thenameswit: cause then i'd be home alone with my sis
thenameswit: but like when my dad was leaving, i was just talking to kadin outside
thenameswit: waiting for my dad to leave
thenameswit: and finally when my dad left
thenameswit: i told kadin to come back inside

That's all you have to knoe x]

HAHA, GOTCHYA, today is like the 7th of october and i've decided to releave what happened.
so before when my dad was in the house, we were a bit distance and he was playing guitar. but once my dad left he tried sitting on my chair but i knocked him off, and then he went on to my bed and just laid there. i decided to lay next to him cause there was a bit of room. we just talked and talked and looked at the ceiling till he got out his phone to see what time it was. I noticed that his cell was on low battery so i got up and tried to charge it, but i couldn't open it so i went back over and laid down again. he opened it, but then put his cell into camera mode, trying to take pictures of me but i reach over to get his cellphone and i was partically on top of him. then we went back to laying down just talking again. I brought up when he almost died me with that rock and he started laughing and i said "shush!" then just poked his side. x] then he grabbed my hand and his foot was trying to push me away but it was just on my stomach. he kept grabbing my hand and i kept trying to poke him. finally i said "dude, i can so win this just watch" and he was like "wanna bet?" so i won and i poked him good, till he got up. then he laid back down next to me and i rested my head on his shoulder and said "so who won now?" and he goes "me" so i start poking him again, but this time he grabbed one of my hands like oober hard, so i gave up and he was like "i won" and i'm like "no you cheated" which reminded me of the first day we met. then he got up and sat on my chair and i just sat up straight facing him. i had the guitar and just started singing him some of my songs. while i was doing that he was just thinking, so i put my guitar away and i reached out for his hand. I was just swinging his hand around, then playing around with his fingers. I let got around five minutes or so and later on did the same thing, but this time i didnt play around with his fingers. i love the fact that he just lets me hold him hand, its a nice feeling.

Oh and one more thing;

buhnanuh50: i can't think of any other words that mean "aww"!
thenameswit: xD
thenameswit: good
thenameswit: lol
buhnanuh50: i looked it up in my e-thesaurs!
thenameswit: LOL
thenameswit: DO IT
buhnanuh50: i did! xD
buhnanuh50: i'll make up a word for it
buhnanuh50: mahhhhhhhmmmmm!
thenameswit: AHHAHAHA
buhnanuh50: it sort of sounds like a sexy whale call.
buhnanuh50: yes indeed.
thenameswit: HAHAHA

Hannah's the best.