Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Blew It, Thanks David.

I'm not always full of jokes, when I say I'm going to do something I'll do it. 
I was so close to making my new years resolution come true.
Thanks to the idiot I like to call jerk, I blew it.
I've been so frustrated to the past couple of days,
So many anger was building up inside,
So many times when I just wanted to cry.
Finally today, I did.
David disrespected me today, and I got so mad I said the f word.
Lovely right? As soon as that happened, I got up and walked out of the classroom straight to the bathroom to cool myself down.
Randeva came in and that's when I just exploded.
I cried so much that my eyes were literally blood shot red, then didn't calm down till 20 minutes later. 
It wasn't only cause of what david made me say,
It was also cause of all the stress and pain I've been going through.

Yeh I pretty much hate my life atm.

thenameswit: whoa..
thenameswit: wrong IM
verde4lyfe: Sure
thenameswit: stop that.
thenameswit: stop being a little rotten jerk.
verde4lyfe: W.e.

Yeh I win

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Man Do I Wanna Curse.

FUDRUCKER.
FEMALE DOG.
FAJURK.
DONKEY.

I LOVE FILM GODDARNIT AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY! IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY, THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I BELONG SOMEWHERE. FOR YOU TO SAY THAT FILM IS ONLY FOR RICH PEOPLE, I'LL PROVE YOU WRONG D:<

I NEVER WANTED TO TALK TO YOU. I ALWAYS HAD A FEAR OF BEING ON YOUR BADSIDE, THAT'S WHY I STAYED AWAY. WHY CANT YOU GET HIT BY A BUS OR SOMETHING. GO AWAY!!

COLLEGE.COLLEGE.COLLEGE. YOU'RE MAKING MY EYES SMALLER, MAKING MY HEAD HURT, AND MAKING MY BODY WEAK. JUST STOP

STOP
STOP
STOP
STOP

i can't take it anymore ):

Monday, January 5, 2009

Stress Hurts

I told myself I should stop stressing myself out, but this year isn't helping me out at all. Got my SAT scores and compared to others, they're not so great. My main goal is to get into PSU. I seriously want to get out of nyc. I mean sure, nyc is great, but I have too many stressful memories here. I feel like I can be a better person if I'm somewhere different. I tried applying to Soka today, but I really don't want to go there, so I don't think i'll continue. I'm deff gonna try to get Portland done by Feb. Tomorrow is probably gonna be my most stressful day. Tuesday tend to be. I wish I could stay home, but I do have another vacation coming up so bleh. Regents week!! Starts on the 19th, so I get another week off x]Oh and of course Senior Trip on the 30th :D Then Feb, I have 14-22nd off. Planning to meet up with Chago and Nessaaaa. Oh and today I had a lovely chat with Adam, he always puts a smile on my face. I love how hes helping me out with the whole PSU thing. xD I'm looking foward/hating jan. Now i'm stuck doing gov homework, its so BLEH. I didn't do math o.o and get this..theres a possible chance I might fail YEAR BOOK D:< as long as some people have things up, I think we're good. Gah o.o I didn't math...whatever. Yeh, stress level is high today. Meghan made me think a lot today xD Gah, why cant life be a littleeee less challenging?

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Why, just why?

Tease me with love.
It hurts cause i knoe it wont happen anytime soon.
I wish it did, but i cant force it to happen.
Neither can 4, 5, 10, 1 million people.
I really just wanna go away for several days,
Test whether you'll think about me more.
I doubt it, but eh whatever.

Give homework on BREAK D:
Just give me more stress why don't ya!
College...ugh i dont even wanna think about it.

Just go away pls.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Skype Thing..and Chago!!

Whitney: Vampire Sex? You wish.
Chago: Yeh! Have you seen my...piano.
Whitney: HAHAHAHA *chokes*
Chago: CHOKE AND DIE

This skype thing, is for everyone who was online. A lot of them weren't my close friends x] I apologize.

1. My first impression of you wasn't the greatest and I ended up not liking for it. Although we have worked together, I still kept a distance from you and I didn't bother to subscribe. I know I'm still not subscribed, but I've changed my opinion of you just a bit, I think you're a really nice guy.
 
2. We've been best friends for almost five years now, but I have to be honest. The thing we talk about everyday has been a huge lie. Once I get caught in a lie, I'm usually stuck like that, so eventually..I'm gonna let you go whether you see it coming or not.

3. I've always wanted to be close friends with you, but I guess it's not to happen cause you have an actual life. I'm glad I can as least say that we know each other.

4. I knew you didn't like me, and it's probably because you didn't like my apperance, but later on when you had no one to talk to you, you came to me. Now, I really dislike you and I hate the fact that you are confused whether you're gay or not, EVERYONE KNOES YOU ARE GAY. LIVE WITH IT.

5. I've always treated you like a fangirl and I still treat you like one even though we are kinda close. I think you're a lovely girl, but you follow trends way too much. I love the fact that you support in almost everything and I thank you for it, but I don't think our friendship would ever go beyond the internet.

6. I've always loved you whether you realize that or not. You're the only person I would go to if I ever had a problem. You've heard me cry even at times when I didn't want you to. I think out of all my friends, I can remember everything we've gone though the most. I've always wanted to tell you my biggest secret, but I bet you already know. I know people have probably put you down in the past, but I've never thought badly about you. Not your personality or your appearance. I def. think that you're one of the best people i've ever met/meeting. I guess that's the reason why I tell you i love you so much, cause i do. 

7. I barely know you, but you're nice. I know my friends know you, but tbh our convos a little dull, so one day..I might block you, nothing personal.

8. I HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU ARE, but i've seen you on youtube a couple of times. Sorry, but I just don't think we would be friends if you haven't even IMed me yet.

9. We've gone through so much in less than two weeks and tbh I think you're a "women user" (cause i cant curse) I almost had a crush on you just because I fall for your type so easily. The way you talked to me made me feel special the first week, but I finally realized that you're just one of "them".

10. The first impression that I gave you was probably my worst and I apologize. You're very pretty, but deep down you're very dorky. You're a really cool person and one day I hope to meet you, but we're very different at the same time. You're a nerdfighter, and i'm just..not. Either way, you're cool. Even though we don't talk 24/7 at least I can say we're friends.

11. I had a feeling that the first time I cmted your page you didn't like me too much since you didnt give me your msn x] but later on we became friends. The first time I saw your channel I really wanted to become friends with you x] just cause you seemed so cool and you are! Although most of our convos on in groups, i like it that way. I have to say you are my favorite british girl x] i'm worried about your sleeping pattern though o.o thats all.

12. You're a cool chick, even if I'm not subscribed or talk to you that much. I think we could be closer, but since we're in very different groups it's just not the same. If someone brought you into my little "group" then maybe we could have been closer. Idk, there's still a chance.

13. You're cute, but you have soooooo many problems that it depresses me whenever we talk. I wish the best for you, even if we live in different countries.

14. I always thought you were part of the "cool kid" pack, but now knowing that I'm one of your best friends, just shocks me. I'm really honored to know that we care about each other a lot, even if we don't like to show it x] You're like a big brother to me and I thank you so much for every 3 hour convo we had. Oh AND YOU BETTER COME TO NYC IN APRIL D:<

15. You don't understand how much I love you. You were actually the first person to get me to say I love you, believe it or not. It was the first aim convo we had, when you were the pickle ;) You said love you before you said bye, and I didn't knoe how to react to that since I never really said ily to anyone. I felt kinda bad that I didn't say ily the first time, so the second time I said it and now I've been saying ily to everyone. So just remember, I loved you first x] hahaha. I love all the insiders we have. Already a year and we've met in person and you're still one of my best friends. Your hug meant so much to me as well x] You're like a long soft pillow. I knoe you've been going through a lot in the past couple of months, but it's affected me as well. You're THE sweetest kid i knoe, and i dont want to lose you. I'm pretty sure many people feel that way x]

16. I found you through Adam and I have to say you're hilarious. I'm pretty sure you're the funniest kid I knoe. Well..you're not really a kid, but you knoe what i mean. I've met you, and you barely knew me, and i barely knew you, but i'm glad i at least said something to you x] Im so glad we talk more now though

17. First time I saw you, I thought physically you're adorable, but your username explains a lot. Your jokes are kind of corny, but in general you're an okay kid x]

18.  I thought you were a creeper o.o Then afterwards I thought you were a jerk, but now i found out that you're hilarous. x] i enjoyed playing draw my thing in iminlykw/ju.

19.  I CANT BELIEVE YOU ADDED ME ON SKYPE; WTHBBQ HOW DO YOU KNOE ME?! btw, your brother talked to me too o.o hes a tad awkward.

20.  You're so awesome x] I love your outfits and I envy all of your good fortune. This is a bit of a secret, but I would love to trade lives x]

21.  You gave my skype name to Katie from jkl o.o and I've only IMed you once...on iminlykw/ju. Why do you like me xD we've never really talked.

22. As Chago, "who ARE you?"

23.  I think you're amazing at many things, but I envy that you might be closer with the guy i kinda love. Especially since you guys like each other at one point, i'm just hoping that you've figured out I liked him ): and want us to be together. Oh and I've tried so much to make good convos with you but you're a bit dull o.o

24. I dont care for you really...

25. First time I saw you, I thought you were cute. I did have a crush on you, but you never knew who I was. In fact the first cmt you ever sent me was a sub4sub xD i subscribed before you gave me that cmt though so I guess it doesn't really count. Several months later you cmted me and we started becoming friends. Next thing you knoe you asked me to go on a date with you which i found incredibly shocking since we live so far apart. You're a lovely kid though. Even if I don't understand some of the things you like or do x] 

26. You're nice to me..but to me you're an old creeper.

27. Before I thought you were pretty and nice, but you're just what i expected. You're nothing but a valley/preppy/wanna be emo girl who's still a little child when it comes to crushes. You're an internet "man user" too! What scares me the most is that ..you're like me, so i knoe exactly how you are. I knoe how you react to certain things that guys say and i knoe if a girl threatens the relationship between you and the guy, you'll do anything in your power to show that you and that boy were meant to be. You use jealousy and you've tried it on me. Didnt work though T_T n00b.

28. I sensed an instant connection between as soon as you came into my blogtv room. Idk what it was, but I had this vibe that you and I would be best friends and we did!! The summer was the best time to talk since I didn't have much to worry about. Now I wish we had as much time as we did during the summer. Meeting you was like meeting my best friend that I haven't seen since the sandbox days. I love horoscopes because it says that Taurus and Cancer would be great together x] and it's true. Even when we went the the youtube gathering, we went away from the group. I had such a lovely time though, plus I owe you dinner when you come to nyc.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Again, Don't Feel Like It

Short Blog;
*went upstate
*chago freaked out cause he didnt knoe where i was; 
i should do that more often.
*filmed some awesome stuff in nyack.
*did vlog
*felt bad, thought about some memories and so future related things.
*tired, but chago wants to play iminlykw/you
I REFUSE!

thenameswit: pedoooooooooo
thenameswit: D:
shut up chago: and you love it.
thenameswit: ew.
thenameswit: LOLS XD
thenameswit: THAT WAS JUST SO WRONG
shut up chago: ;D
thenameswit: XD MY GOODNESS
shut up chago: i like your freckles and pigtails, little girl.
thenameswit: O.O
shut up chago: want some candy?
shut up chago: i keep it in my white van.
thenameswit: NOT AGAIN

Thursday, January 1, 2009

I Don't Feel Like Bloggin T_T

So here's a short one;
*talked to vivien and chago on skype [not at the same time]
*went to johnny rockets :D i miss vivien♥
*saw bed time stories; LOVEEEE♥
*made trv collab vid w/ chago.
*FINISH "PONDER THIS" MY SONG!!
*talked to fiona, dani, kayla, nessa and gabbie.
*fiona and i are most likely doin a song together one of these days :D
*been waiting for cooper to come online -__- gah

basically it. x] 
this new yrs is starting off pretty good.
oh and one more thing;

shut up chago: stfu

thenameswit: STHU*

shut up chago: STFU

shut up chago: =]

thenameswit: T_T

thenameswit: listen you little fudrucker, i can still beat you down.

shut up chago: o bby

thenameswit: LOLS HUSH UP FOO'

shut up chago: ;D