Movies and songs have changed my view on life. Weird right? xD idk. I saw futurama this movie about a purple star, and twilight. twilights scenery....wow. srsly I LOVE SCENERY. if a got took me to some open place with just trees I WOULD LOVE IT XD im so weird. but im in a really happy mood. im a little nervous about tomrrow, but idk. i feel like this week is going to be a good week. someone wish me good luck? Jay's song is seriously amazing. I have plans already, but I have to wait for spring to comee
everyone has been sayin' it. why cant i? i feel like, kicking someone. i feel kinda happy though. i've been working a lot. Which is usually not the case for me. im still working, but mah i wanna sleep like now. too bad i cant... BUT I CANNNNT. xD Kari and i were singing that on the train. I IS HAVING SLEEPOVER ON THE 11TH OF APRIL! WEEEEEEEE. that'll be exciting. tomorrow is half a day, but i still dont wanna go to school xD oh and i have no doubt that chago will pass me in subs. gah, i feel so unloved on youtube xD thanks guys.
I wanna make a song with drums and with friends..and possibly get a wire for my mic >_>
COMPARING WHITNEY AND CHAGOS NOSE; WHO HAS LIGHTER SKIN?.jpg)
MAH; I IS GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME ATM! BE NICE JERKS; and fuck off if you're the one that keeps harassing me. I'm not in the mood for anything, I really am not. I'm getting a trim w/ layers cos mah hair is getting flat, bleh, on saturday or sunday. someone give me luck tomorrow? i'll smile for ya.
Getting over guys is hard. I like several guys, but nothing special. I'm usually just super giggly. Mehh, I'll wait. Mah eyes hurt. Time for bed? Tomorrow im gonna be busy and nervous. This whole weekend is making nervous D: someone send me luck tomorrow? pls?? ♥ oh and JAY AND I ARE MAKING A SONG :D
I like someone, but thats my secret. i went upstate today and that was fun :D i havent been there in a while. oh and i made two songs, that was intense. Here are my highlights of the day: jaywinsthegame commented on this picture:Delete Comment(46 Minutes, 7 Seconds Ago)
i lyk songs. particularly ones of your creation.
ofarevolution441: i'd be afraid of getting shot... like in nyc
Today was AMAZING. Well at least the part where I went to my internship. We got there before Gauruv and chrystian did :D Andrew was there surprisingly. I didn't really feel like talking to him, but I ended up talking to him a lot. There was a point where I had to act with him. He basically saves me from "the abusive prince". He was SUPPOSE to hold me and walk me to the door, but he shoved me xD hahahahah I still think he doesnt like me. There was a point where we did kinda flirt and I was happy inside x] He was playing with markers and i took one, and then i put it back and he took it and stood it up again so I took it again, but he tried grabbing it before me, so I laughed. Then i did it again with another marker and he tried grabbing it again, but i was too fast (twss). Then he thought I was gonna grab the last one, and he was about to grab it, but I just looked at him and i laughed at him x] I noticed that there were times where he didnt like me, like while we were in the closet I was kinda like "AHH XD ITS SO CLOSED IN" and he was like "stop yelling" xD hahaha, oh well. and there was another time where i was trying to get the video done so I was like "practice practice!" he seemed annoyed. Meh, hopefully Natty can help me and make him like me x] she even said "i'll make him fall in love with you" xD GAH IM SUCH A SUCKER FOR LOVE. GET ME OUT OF IT PLS.
I like those guys. I've came to realize, that most of the guys I used to like were just to make me feel like I could have a boyfriend any day. I used to talk to my friends about these guys as if they were about to ask me out. But tbh, most of them I just liked because of their looks. I don't remember liking a guy for their personality. In fact, most of the guys I knew were jerks. Now with you, I first started getting attracted to you physically, but it was easy for me to tell my friends that I didn't like you. But when I started liking you because we became so close, it was really hard to hide. I couldn't stop smiling every time you called, I felt way happier when I was talking to you. I kinda felt like liking you was going to be like liking any other guy. It wasn't though. For the first time in my life, I told YOU how i felt. I've never told a guy that I liked them. I mean if I did, I probably didn't mean it. I've never felt so comfortable around a guy where I could just tell him anything. I still feel weird when I tell you the most randomised nonsense. After I told you that I liked you, I've actually been thinking about the future. When it comes down to it, I really have this fear that I'll never get the chance to do anything with you. I feel like you would slowly lose me and run off with your own life. I even can see you getting married to a environmentalist x] The more and more I think that way, the more I see you as a friend. So in a way, I guess you're getting what you want. There will be a point where I won't like you anymore, but deep down, if we do stay in contact, I will always have this little bit of hope that you'll like me back again one day.
I have never been so tired in my life. I haven't been getting enough sleep, and now I'm rushing to finish my homework. I wish I could have gone to bed the same time as Chago did, but gah my darn procrastination. This cursing week thing isn't working out for me too much. I said the eff word today and today was my third day xD I'm still gonna try, I've been becoming more aware of what I say and when I say it. I feel proud that I can actually control it sometimes, cos my other friend is trying to do the same thing, but is epically failing. My neck is in complete pain, rawrrrrr. GAP was fun today. ANDREW CUT HIS HAIR O.O I WAS LIKE O_O i miss his long hair xD now he just reminds me of liam. xD
