I Want Me Some Views

One Day

Sometimes I wish I was a little different. Better singing, recording, and just better at playing instruments. I wish I was a better student, better friend, better everything. The only thing that I feel great about is my videos and songs. But I still want to improve so much. I went to the music studio, which is downstairs in my house, today and I think i might go there more often. I want to make songs that will actually make me have goosebumps. One day, just one day.

CAPS BLOG

 HOMEWORK ALL DAY.

NEW VIDEO IDEAS.

HOW COME I DONT HAVE MANY VIEWS?!

MY VOICE IS STILL KINDA IFFY.

I MISSED MY INTERNSHIP TODAY. 

DOULE YOU TEA EFF.

IM TALKING TO CHAGO & AMANDA

THEY'RE HOES.

IDK WHY I'M USING CAPS!

I GUESS ITS KINDA FUN.

I FOUND THIS CUTE ENGLISH GUY.

SATURDAY IS MY PARTNER PARTY;

RANDEVA AND SOPHIE ARE GOING :D

I HAVE TO THINK OF THINGS TO DO.

I JUST REALIZED THAT RANDEVA IS PROBABLY MY CLOSEST FRIEND AT SCHOOL ATM.

HER, KARLA AND KAINAT.

ok, no more caps cos i tired

I Fell Asleep at 9:45pm

I had a wonderful long day yesterday. Like seriously, I usually hate tuesdays, but I was so lucky ^-^ I really was super energetic o.o so when I got back home which was around 9pm, I just crashed. I tried staying awake because I had an essay to do, but when my dad took the laptop for 10 mins, I crasheddddddddddddd. My dad isn't coming till 11am...so I'm doing homework and something else >_> I simply don't feel like going to school cause I have a lot of work due friday, and thursday i have my internship. I didn't get to talk to anyone last night rly ): I miss chago. Ohh, btw! I have so many brilliant ideas for videos o.o i might do a vlog/skit today, and this AMZIN thing on saturday with my friends x] im so excited

Inspired By Mister Dyer

* I consider myself more white than peruvian because I was raised in America.

* I love what the city has to offer, I just hate the memories I have created.

* My favorite thing to do is to ride in the car for hours with my music on full blast. 

* I listen to my own songs on my iPod to feel better about my singing, but tbh I don't like it as much as other people do. 

* I always had this feeling that english people disliked me because of my first experience with this english guy >_>

* I dislike homework with a passion and think it's a waste of my time.

* I'm a virgin in just about anything you can think of >_> (sex, dating, relationships, kiss, no piercing, no tattoos, never dyed my hair)

* I don't knoe the definition of love, but from what my friends are telling me, i am "in love" with someone, and i'm trying so hard to win his heart ):

* I secretly follow trends, but mix it with a little me.

* I've always wanted to recieve a necklace and sweater from a guy i like...and i did :) well, one of them anyway.

* I know that I'm not liked by many people atm and it does bother me.

* I really don't know what I'm doing with my life right now.

* I like attention, so if I deny anything, I'm probably enjoying it.

* I hate listening to the acoustic guitar, but I love playing it.

* I've been thinking about scientology recently, about how fears and stress are caused, but the way the fix it, I find it completely ridiculous.

* If I did something wrong, I give myself a harder time about the situation. 

* I don't eat right (healthy) even if I know I should.

* I'm an avoider and runner, I don't like facing my problems unless they're easy to solve.

OH AND I GOT PARTNERED!

Today..I Dont Know What To Say

My sister woke me up 1:30 pm T_T wow tomorrow i'm not gonna be ready to go to school. I have a crap load of homework tomorrow. teacher's dont get that this is senior year xD jerkssss. Anyways, I just saw a chago look a like o.o i was like whoa..hes cute. oh and check this out. my throat really hurts, but everytime i cough i get hiccups T_T ugh, i hate hiccups. i dont knoe why im up. gaah, well i made a new song and i really like it. im also looking at other collleges in oregon, cos i RLY DONT WANNA STAY IN NYC. AND I MEAN IT. i will not apply to any ny colleges. its done, over with BLEHHH oh and THIS IS THE CUTEST THING EVRRRRRRRR thanks  amandaaaa x]

I've Been Forgetting

Last night was awesome. Saw Caroline and went on Blogtv AND CHAGO CAME BACK :D FINALLY! I don't have much to say. Especially since I really haven't done too much during the week. Kari has my camera!! GAAAH I never thought I would miss something so much D: I just called Kari and she's coming over tomorrow!! I'm so excited, I invited Siobhan and Randeva too!! Party time once again :D I'm gonna clean my room, do some of my homework and hope to get it done by manana. I feel really good today, I have no idea why. I think it's cause I'm cleaning my room and listening to music. Oh!! And Hannah just called me! She's with Bridget! Talk about craziness! I wish I could meet them. D: Oh well, as long as they're having fun I'm happy. My two daughters :) Weeeeee Now I have to meet Chago and call up Hannah and Bridget. ): *sigh* 

Oh and Kayla; BlogSpot was being a little twat; I couldnt fix everything in my last blog, it cut off you and some of the things I said to Leah. x] So here;

Kayla--What can I say about you, my sheep twin. It's been four years already and I have a feeling that we'll be friends until we get to be 98 and lose our memories. Even then I have a feeling that we'll IM each other and be like "who the heck are you?"-wit "SHEEP!?"-kayla. Yeh, you were my first internet friend and I'm glad that we're still together ^-^ 

Here's the reason for Leah

Leah--You're simply amazing. You're very talented and friendly, and Im glad that I'm able to call you my friend and tell you my love stories x] I miss talking to you!

So I Meant To Put This On My Channel...

ThatZak--A one of a kind guy who I'm glad to call one of my best friends. He's like the brother I never had. Even though he's usually a jerk, I still love and care for him very much.  

YourAverageAdam--One of the first youtubers I met and one of my favorite guys. He's someone I would never want to lose. I think we have one of the best insiders.  

ShutUpChago--I talk to him everyday. I've made too many nicknames for him. NO HE IS NOT RELATED TO ME AND WE'RE NOT DATING YET. Hah...just kidding about the "yet". But yeh, I love him with all my heart.  

Strawburry17--I feel like she's my older sister. Probably one of the best people I've met on youtube. She has such a kind heart and the fact that we're bff4l makes me smile everyday.  

FionaShizz--She's my favorite European. She's like my little scottish sister. We sing together, make jokes together and she's just wonderful. If I could I'd fly over to Scotland now just to hang out with her.  

FeellineCancer--She's someone that I would never want to lose because we connect. Even our first convo, we decided to become bff4l from that! I love her to death and I still owe her dinner.  

Skypers;  

BirdRage--You can be a jerk sometimes, but I love how supportive you are. LCSSings--You're simply amazing. OmgOctopus--You're crazy and lovely. Your protesting makes me laugh x] I love it. Voldey--You're such a funny guy! I love talking to you. It makes my day.

JeremyTheNerd--You're adorable, especially since you have my autograph xD Daughters; InASmallTown50--GAH I LOVE YOUUUU!! I love our random CAPS convos and pervertedness. You make me feel like me x] TerrifyingTaco--You're lovely, but your name makes me hungry x] You're my night buddy. The one I talk to when everyone is asleep. You're awesome x] BirdRage--T_T i already wrote about you. I love you all.

ChaCha<3

ohai

I was joking with you when I said I was leaving last night. >_>

When I decided to say "JK" you had already left.

I love you weiner. And I will miss you.

..slut.

that was from chago ): I MISS HIM. ok, well going to go to GAP soon, so LATER GATORS

ok so today was ridiculous xD

natty and i went to virgin records! i got an awesome shirt, but here's how i got that awesome shirt.

so natty and i decide to go all the way to the lowest floor to find a shirt. i'm in the left part of the floor and then i point to the other side and say "lets go here." Then this HOT guy turns around, and i go "i think i pointed the right direction" and he turns around and just stares at me while hes going up the stairs. xD I felt so weird and giggly cause no guy has ever stayed starin at me. usually they ignore me. goddd, if he wasnt with his dad i would have followed him around. gah. oh well. 

THEN we went to this scientology church for fun. IT WAS SO STUPID XD the film made NO SENSE!! i had a blast just making fun of the movie. i still miss chago x]

I Made A Mistake

I've apologized plenty of times and tbh im not gonna continue. i've done so much today. i'm tired, i dont think i can change his mind about me anymore. i've never done this to anyone, and i dont knoe why i did xD i really dont so ..MAH. yesterday was AMAZING. my goodness. sleepover and everything. we watched a movie and just started having so much fun. prank called chago but he doesnt have his CELLPHONE!! HE LOST IT D:< that jerk. god, im gonna miss him ): even if it is two days. i didnt really get to talk to him this weekend. 

*Sends Love*

I GOT A BALLOON FROM MI MADRE ^-^

idc what anyways says. i love balloons.

i flirted with a couple guys. mehhhh.

made a video :D weeeeeeeeeeee.

um, i really didn't do much. xD sad.

just went on blogtv most of the time.

TOMORROW WILL BE EXCITING

hanging out with friendssssssssss.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ok, i really dont knoe what to say.

i need to do more things GAAH.

oh and...

FIONA IS NOW MY EUROPEAN BFF4L 

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Because Of Stupid Valentines

i'm a weirdo. i made a song for valentines/chago. here's the lyrics;

Even though you hate this holiday,

And I’ve been broken so many ways

I still have hope that you’d like me.

But you probably don’t see, how sensitive

I can be so just listen

Why can’t New Jersey and Delware,

Move out of my way

 

My heart is so weak

I can’t speak

Because of stupid Valentines

I apologize          

These aren’t lies                      

Because of stupid Valentines

 

I don’t see what the point is

When you told me how you kiss

Kinda tempted me,

Set my thoughts free,

I felt twisted.

The red head was like yo son,

Just go on and catch him

Well, I felt like I was headed towards more devastation

 

Staring at my walls, staring at the ceiling,

Realizing I’m not getting requited feelings

Pay attention here’s a quick lesson

If you have something to say

Better get it out the way  cause

I’ve got so many voices in my head

IF YOU WANT; IM ME PLS :D its really lovely. 

shut up chago: love.

shut up chago: and thankyou for the song.

shut up chago: f'real.

shut up chago: <3

shut up chago: night weiner.

thenameswit: ^-^

thenameswit: byeeeee

SABES QUE?

So I went on FACEBOOK the other day and found this. Wow, I'm glad I dont go on facebook often x] ANYWAYS; today was an amazing days. I offically wanna have my internships babies. xD jkjkjk. No but seriously, GAP makes me look foward to tuesdays and thursday and trust me, I hate tuesdays x] no offense nessa! I hate fridays too, which is the reason why i'm not really looking foward for tomorrow. I kinda just wanna stay home. Well, we'll see what happens. GAP was so amazing today. After GAP, sophia, lily, natty, randeva and i went to hang out. First at the pizza shop, then just around x] We seriously had a blast. We're gonna try to do the same on tuesday since there's NO SCHOOL! WOO! Gah, I really wanna see Chago and Nessa this month though, like seriously that's been my goal since October. That reminds me, tomorrow I have to record my song. ITS AMAZING, vivien helped ^-^ Chago's making buffalo fur, rawr. GAH, someone please help me stay positive tomorrow. It's very hard for me to smile on tuesdays and fridays. More fridays then tuesdays.

thenameswit: and how would we fight in spanish?

shut up chago: DIOS MIO, POR QUE ME SIEMPRE QUEIRES HABLAR ASI? -chago

shut up chago: POR QUE NUNCA ME PONGAS ATTENCION. -weenie

shut up chago: PERO SI SIEMPRE QUEIRES ATENCION, NO PUEDO DARLO CADA MOMENTO -chago

shut up chago: SABES QUE? OLVIDATE. -weenie

Valentine Should Go Away; MY WEEK IS GOOD D:<

I LOVE TWITTER + SKYPE!

Yeh I had a good today. 

I really missed being on skype. 

My BUT I CANT video is amazing.

So far I've gotten good cmts.

A lot about Twilight T_T, which I'm getting annoyed about. 

I apologize if a lot of people didnt like that I posted so many twitters. 

I really need to pee...my dad took this laptop last  night so I didn't get to blog. 

I was so mad cause I had a really good day yesterday.

Today I had an easy going day, how lovely ^-^

This has been makin' me feel better.

I feel like some people still dont like me for that thing that happen >_> but eh, they really have to get over that stupid RUMOR.

Valentines day is coming soon and i've got no one, AGAIN.

Meh, i'm used to it. 

And no girls, i love you and all, but i dont want my first valentine to be a girl x]

It's just how I am. 

Best Way To Hang Up

Sillies. I had a strange day today. I've been trying to upload my "But I Can't" video but it's taking ages. I shouldn't have went to Lani's house. At least my hair looks great :D I went bike riding o.o I WAS LIKE YEEEEEEEEY. Xcept for some reason my knee and side started hurting a lot. I started dancing in my backyard. I don't feel as safe as I did before, because the gate has holes now T_T I'm calling chago too much x] I refuse to go on aim. RAWR. When he did pick up though, I was trying to say something and he kept interuppting me, so finally i said "YAKNOEWUHT 4GIT YEW" and hung up. It was lovely. But He didn't call back T_T I lose. rawr. hmmm, i wonder if i have homework. for the most part...GAAH hes calling T_T ahhhh i has math tarea, brb.

Procrastinating

Gah, i'm such a fool. Trying to relax, but I'm not doing anything better for myself. I've been thinking about Oregon more and more lately. I'm taking PSU very seriously. I don't want to stay in this hell hole I call home. I really just want to start over. I know myself well, whenever I'm somewhere new, I'm not the same person. I tried changing in the beginning of senior yr, I kinda did, but people just brought me back to the same old me. Idk whether thats a good or bad thing, but to me i just don't like it. The weirdest thing happened today though, I saw myself...driving?! idk, whatever. ANYWAYS, im making a new song :D its not depressing! its lovely! unless i change the lyrics tomorrow, but i probably wont. made a videooooooooooo ^_^ it'll be up by tomorrow hopefully. (but i cant music video) I LEARNED HOW TO USE VEGASSS. WOO. oh and one more thing T_T I STILL LIKE HIM; ADHLVDFDGH RAWR GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD

"YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND"

Says chago's little cousins while I was talking to him on the phone x] It was so adorable. Then when Chago put me on the phone with them, one of them said "SHE'S A GIRL HEHEHEHE" xD I LOL'D It was lovely. One of his cousins called him Big Head x]I called him Big Head...but then he called me Weenie in the butt T_T all of his cousins we're rofling T__________________T Chago called me while I was watching Sleepy Hallow, gah it was nuts. I can never watch a movie in peace x] Idc though, now I found nicknames for Chago and I have memories :D 

Lately, I haven't really cared about my hair xD It's such a weird feeling. I've been a bit lazy, yet relaxed. I'm still getting harrassed by people about certain things, but I'm not letting it completely control my actions. Sending the rest of the gifts on monday hopefully. Rawr rawr. I'm still hoping for lovely days.

Later Gators.

RAWR

Can people stop spreading rumors and talking about me? If you dont understand something, just ask me. *headache* NIGHT

ITS SO EMPTY D:

TYPE TYPE TYPE

BYE

UNDER COVER PENIS LOVER

Yeh, I've known that song for a while, but this is the first time where I'm like hooked on the song. Last night I pranked a bunch of people with some of the lyrics. It was amazing x] Today though, in the morning, I had this kind of bad vibe. Things weren't so bad though. Around art class, i felt my laptop open and jake called xD everyone was talking to him for ten minutes. It was great x] Then GAP WAS SO MUCH FUN TODAY. I made friends with Kari and Natty. Lily kept saying I was pretty ^-^ I felt happy. Lily always said that i would look cute with gauruv o.o OH AND I FOUND OUT HES STRAIGHT!! OH SNAP! i had tons of fun today xD and surprisingly i'm on my period! why am i always happy when i get it? weirdddddddd. xD PEOPLE DONT TAKE ADVANTAGE. I'LL SMACK YA. btw

DONT TRY AND HIDE IT 

DONT DENY IT

KEEP INSIDE IT

CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY

YOU KNOE YOU'RE GAY AND ITS OK

CAUSE YOU'RE A U N D E R C O V TO THE E R

P E N I S L O V TO THE E R

Sick

thenameswit: make me feel better D:

shut up chago: i will if you make me feel better.

thenameswit: ok

thenameswit: *hugs*

shut up chago: hoog.

thenameswit: you didnt let go yet right?

shut up chago: naw.

thenameswit: ^-^ goot. 

One Hour Later

thenameswit: you still didnt let go right?

shut up chago: naw

thenameswit: ^-^

Ugh, Great :\

I woke up in pain this morning, around 9am.

Went back to bed till 11pm. 

I have a huge headache, and i kinda lost my voice.

This week isn't going to be so great.

Probably My Worst Weekend

All I have to say is this;

Thanks mom, for not letting me go to Maryland. You make great decisions. While I'm at it, I'll quit youtube and stop filming. Sell my guitar and stop singing. Throw out my laptop and use the library's for essays. Hell, I'll stay in your house till I'm 21. And thanks life, for making me feel how I feel right now. I truly deserve it and saw it coming!

Senior Trip 2 & 3

Day 2:

*Snow Tubing-three guys jumped over me.

*Pool-too crowded

*Arcade-funfunfun

*Manhunt-ran EVERYWHERE

*Karaoke-NO SUPPORT JERKS 

*Pool-meh

*Dance-xD im a fool.

*Bed early

Day 3:

*Going snow tubing & homeee